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Random ramblings [Sep. 28th, 2003|10:29 am]
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Spent the morning looking at journals (instead of studying - my bad) and adding some friends. Because of my limited time, I can't just add everyone, so tried to find the people who have political or timely entries so I can jump right in on the debates, since the other people I can look at on the weekends. I never lock entries, so people I didn't add shouldn't feel like they're missing out on anything - sorry I can't just add you all, but I would get completely swamped and not get anyone read.


A bad night of sleep, with theferrett up all night (literally - he climbed into bed at 8:30 when I was getting up), and fierce acid reflux (don't know what we ate yesterday that did it, but we were both having problems), I couldn't get any really deep sleep, just kept looking at the clock. As a result I had strange dreams, most involving the need to cross wide bodies of water over which there were no bridges. (Paging Dr. Freud...)

The only one worth noting is the one I told Ferret about, wherein he and I were driving with my kids (much younger versions) and a couple anonymous Magic players, through some open wilderness area and had to catch ferries to cross the rivers. We missed one, and didn't have reservations for the next, and would be stuck there for a couple days, when our friend Sheldon juggernt drove up. Everyone got out of the car to greet him except Ferrett, who just sat in the car reading. Sheldon had a reservation on the next ferry and said he would take us all except Ferrett, who had been rude. In my dream I went to tell Ferrett that he would have to stay behind and he was a bit irked, but said, "No, that's okay, he's right. I wouldn't want to take someone who was rude, and I wouldn't want you to try to talk me into it. I'll wait."

When I told Ferrett about it his reaction was, "Yeah, that's what I would have done. It's nice to know that I'm consistent in your dreams."

Study group in a little bit - I will have been at the law school every day in the past week without a break. If I do that too often I am in serious danger of burnout.

[User Picture]From: gailg
2003-09-28 12:45 pm (UTC)
I'm pretty good at interpreting dreams, but if you want me to interpret this one (not everyone does, so I won't assume), you'll have to tell me about Sheldon. How do you know him? What kind of person is he? I realize that I might be able to get some of this information from his journal, but the idea is to get your view. (You can email this to me privately if you like.)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2003-09-29 01:55 am (UTC)
What to say about Sheldon. He's a friend of ours from Anchorage, he and his wife Lisa. He was the first game master I ever played under. His character and mine were romantically entangled and, to be frank, I developed an attraction to him. I spent a lot of time in denial about it, even to myself, which created tension apropros Sheldon between Ferrett and me - this was at a time when my lack of emotional honesty was an issue in a lot of arenas in our lives, and when his insecurity contributed to it. We had a lot to work through, but that's all pretty much behind us now, though.

Sheldon and Ferrett actually have an excellent professional working relationship - Sheldon is the judging expert for Star City Games in his spare time. He is a strong person with a lot of presence and charisma. If I had done the "which LJ friend would you like to have backing you up in a fight" list, he would have been at the top of it. He's one of my closest buddies and I wish he and Lisa lived closer so we could see them more often.
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[User Picture]From: gailg
2003-09-29 04:00 pm (UTC)
When you're driving in the car with your family and friends, that represents your life as it has been and how it is now.

The ferry represents change that is about to happen and that you are anticipating. I think that Sheldon represents your positive feelings about the change, your excitement about it. When all of the people in the car get out and greet him, that could be the support you feel from family and friends for your decisions and it can also be the strength of your own feelings for your decisions (it can be both at the same time).

I think that Ferrett represents your negative feelings about the change (no offense intended towards Ferrett), your fears. He stays back there in the car. He's there, but he doesn't make a big fuss when he's told he'll be left behind. I think this is your unconscious telling you that it's okay to be afraid of the change, but you don't have to let your fears hold you back.

What do you think?
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2003-09-30 03:54 am (UTC)
Interesting. I like it. I'm going to think on it throughout the day, contemplate it a bit.
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