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I am fiercely stupid [Dec. 2nd, 2003|12:14 am]
Zoethe
[Current Mood |exhaustedexhausted]
[Current Music |Barenaked Ladies - Pinch Me]

Exhaustion has seeped through me, and yet I still sit at the computer. I haven't gotten anything useful done, but instead of going to bed early I have sat up late and now will be exhausted yet another morning.

No Weasel at home. I am very bad at taking care of myself. Even on those nights when he can't come to bed because he must work late, there is the comfort of having him around.

I'm not easy with this level of dependence. The child in me fears that it isn't safe. It is a credit to Ferrett that I am capable of even admitting it.

Must sleep now. Rest well, all my beloveds.
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[User Picture]From: gothiksukkubus
2003-12-01 10:29 pm (UTC)
*comfort*
He'll be back soon, baby...and he's going to need you as much as you need him right now.
Both of you have been thru hell.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2003-12-02 05:17 am (UTC)
It's been a bit of a ride, that's for sure. Yet I still feel lucky, and happy, and grateful. I have good people to help get me through it all.
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[User Picture]From: salix_03
2003-12-02 08:14 pm (UTC)
i got into the habbit of only going to bed when andrew did which meant monday night was 8pm bed time, tuesday/wednesday/thursday about 10pm and friday/saturday 3am and sunday 6pm. now i tend to sit up till 2am 'waiting'. im trying to get out of that habbit but it's hard.

i hope you and your ferrett feel better soon and your lives settle down some.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2003-12-02 08:46 pm (UTC)
Here's the weird thing: despite all the troubles, I am full of joy.

My journal is not titled at it is without reason.
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[User Picture]From: salix_03
2003-12-02 11:44 pm (UTC)
irripresable optimism is a great personality trait!
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