I had a similar day yesterday. I spoke with my grandmother, who is sick with cancer, and later found myself sobbing. I am constantly looking for the lesson in these situations..I suppose this is my way of maintaining a certain level of peace in every situation. Yeah, I know what you mean. Love and Peace.
I, too, quest for meaning. Sometimes I have to settle for, life is hard, then you die.
I've been where you are now, and there's nothing that words can do. All I can give you is *Big Hugs*.
nothing to offer of any substance except my sympathy, because I know a little of what that's like. If you want any energy sent out to you & your sister let me know.
efinitely happy to have energy sent to us both. Thank you.
*hugs* as well... keeping you and your sister in my thoughts.
Deeply appreciated, believe me.
Often, I find emotional agony to be much harder to handle than physical. I can do all sorts of breathing exercises and things to distract myself from physical pain, but I haven't figured out how to ignore my emotions.
I hope things get better for you.
Yeah, the emotions are tough. I did physical pain last winter, and I'd almost prefer that - at least it occupies the mind.
Hugs and warm energy to you and to her.
Hugs, I hope that they find out what's wrong soon.
If you don''t mind,, what is your sister''s name and what is her mother''s name?
My sister is Kristi and my mom is Deanna.
I'll keep her in mind.
Ugh. I am so sorry you are feeling yucky. You and your sister are in my thoughts. And, next week, I will give you a big hug in person!
I'm looking forward to that. And to being warm!
Yeah, it's always easier to talk about it than do it, especially with these kinds of things. One of the things I find for me is that it's a helluva lot easier for me to bear my pain or that of strangers than the pain of those close to me. I'm used to my own pain and what it feels like and what alleviates it. I know the internal "tricks" that make things at least easier to bear most of the time. When it comes to someone I care about, though, I can't do that for them. I'm left with much less certain approaches. And that's hard, because it means that I might not be able to do anything other than be there with them while they hurt and feel some of it along the ride.
And I'm good at shutting down the part of me that's hurting so I can be there and be strong/sympathetic/funny/supportive/whateverisneeded at the time. But that always comes with a price that I pay later, and it's usually a similar kind of collapse like you described.
Count on it, the positive vibes 'n' prayers are going forth from this end, too.
Thanks. I hate the feeling of being this out of control. Not knowing what's wrong with her is the scary part, and not being able to convince them to get really assertive with the docs is frustrating. The energy and good wishes are greatly appreciated.
I can definitely relate to the discomfort of being out of control, especially when it's dealing with something and someone that's so important to you. I also relate to the frustration of not being able to get them to be more assertive. Then again, there's a lot of times where wanting to control others is frustrating.
The prayers 'n' good wishes will keep coming as long as they're needed. My aunt's in a similar situation, and I think I've got some idea where you're coming from and what you're going through. Here's hoping that, for both your sister and my aunt, it all works out all right.
I'll light a candle for your sister's health.