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The first of June [Jun. 1st, 2004|07:06 pm]
Zoethe
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Friday night as we were crawling into bed I said to Ferrett in all seriousness, "Summer's almost over!"

He looked at me like I was insane. And to a certain degree I acknowledge that yes, I am overreacting. But the schedule is filling up so fast, and there are so many things that I want to do that haven't even been scheduled, that it feels like the whole summer will be over before I get a chance to breathe. This weekend we are going to Massachusetts for Erin's graduation from highschool and to bring her back here for the summer. The first week of August is booked for a real family vacation. Ferrett's mom and stepdad will be visiting, and his dad, and my stepmom, all at different times. August is dedicated to Amy, just as it was last year. It already feels packed and we haven't even started scheduling in fun with friends. And in the midst of all this - which I want to do - I have to find time to just be slow and rest, which I need to do.

Life is good, and friends are good, and I know I'm really fortunate. But WOW do I wish I could split myself in half, let the busy half do its thing all summer and the resty half rest, and then mash them back together at the end of August!
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From: grailquestion
2004-06-01 11:47 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry you're rushed! Hopefully we can relax a little this week--a little low-key activity tomorrow night and Thursday night?
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2004-06-02 01:09 am (UTC)
I never think of gaming as low-key, but it is a lot of fun. As for Thursday, that definitely counts.

Even if I am feeling the conflicting pull of opening night of Harry Potter.... [g]
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[User Picture]From: leanerbean
2004-06-02 12:24 am (UTC)
I feel exactly the same way! The other day Ted promised that this summer he'd be happy to go hiking with me any weekend there was pretty weather. I said, "you mean out of the three whole weekends that aren't already scheduled?"
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2004-06-02 01:10 am (UTC)
Yup. It's dizzying, really. And I hadn't even taken into account the weekends of Star City travel for Ferrett. Gah!
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[User Picture]From: crystalvh
2004-06-02 06:57 pm (UTC)
I feel your pain, girls. Star City travel has Pete gone every weekend in June except this weekend (thank heavens we will be able to see Harry at midnight on Friday!). July and August each have big conventions and weekend trips. And, we are probably going to move sometime this summer. I guess we know who's packing up the house...ugh.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2004-06-02 07:26 pm (UTC)
Moving, ugh. [shudder] I truly feel for you.

SCG widows. That's us.
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[User Picture]From: crystalvh
2004-06-02 08:26 pm (UTC)
Maybe we need to form a support group :-)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2004-06-03 10:16 pm (UTC)
"Women Who Scrub Too Much"?

;-)
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From: williaej
2004-06-02 03:04 am (UTC)
I kept telling myself that since the sun doesn't actually go away until almost 9:00 this time of year I'd be able to get so much more done. It was like someone gave me three more hours a day.

What a happy fantasy that was.

Here's hoping you get time to breathe!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2004-06-02 11:17 am (UTC)
Ah, yes. "This summer will be different!" syndrome. Every year.

I look back on those childhood days of getting bored by July and marvel at how little we appreciated summer vacation....
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[User Picture]From: shadesong
2004-06-02 02:33 pm (UTC)
I so know the feeling...

This weekend: Put kid on plane.
June 9-16: Vegas.
June 20: Writing Marathon coffee
June 25: Concert & Houseguest
June 26: Writing Marathon
July 4: Yendi's & my anniversary!
July 10-11: Boston?
July 17-18: Blogathon...
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[User Picture]From: noshot
2004-06-02 05:10 pm (UTC)
I take this approach...



I could die tomorrow, so what's the point of scheduling? Take it as it comes.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2004-06-02 05:20 pm (UTC)
If I took that approach, though, I would quit my job and go spend my last days on a beach someplace. It's not that I don't want to do these things, just that I want massively more volumes of time in which to do them.

It's the school thing, mostly. Summer as such doesn't extend into the pleasant, warm days and crisp evenings of September and October because I have to spend those evenings in class.

Two more years....
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[User Picture]From: noshot
2004-06-02 05:37 pm (UTC)
Here's an interesting quote...

"Death gives meaning to our lives. It gives importance and value to time. If time were indefinitely put off, the human psyche would end up...well, like the gambler on the Twilight Zone episode."

- Ray Kurzweil, The Age of Spiritual Machines
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