Gyah. Jesus fuck.
I'm sorry, Gini.
Too many people in this world are just like that. Even when they hit what other people would consider rock bottom they still find people to blame for their inability to get a footing.
You are a womderful person for being there for them, too bad they don't seem to appreciate it or learn from your motivation..
My thoughts exactly. My wife and I work our asses off for the things we do have, and appreciate any help that's ever come our way. One of her sisters (well, mostly her husband), on the other hand, seemed to think that the world owed them something for a long time. No job was good enough, he had to work on Sundays, he had to work too late at night, you know, whatever reason to turn down a job. It takes substantial effort to get fired, and that happened to him as well. It was pathetic. Thankfully, he's getting better, and while I do care for them, they really have to start taking responsibility for themselves.
I'd not be nearly as angry if I'd just been handed things all my life, I'm sure. I've worked for everything that I have, hell, I worked three jobs while carry an 18 hour course load for a couple of year.
Okay, I'll stop ranting.
god, this sounds so familiar that it makes me queasy.
It's bad enough when you see that sort of thing in acquaintances. When it's someone related to you, it's even worse. *hugs*
I hope she starts learning from your example and begins doing things to help herself before it's too late.
She's 37. I don't hold out much hope. Though my mother didn't turn her life around until she was in her late 40s....
I agree with what everyone has said, Gin, and I so understand how sorrowful and frustrating--hell, infuriating--a situation like this can be. Especially when you are like myself, who wants to fix things and make everybody happy.
It's a lesson going on for me this week as I try to reconcile the fact that another friend of mine is hurting people with his actions and all that I have said through the years means nothing.
For some people, it's easier to live in pain rather than to admit some of their suffering is their own fault. Because there is the danger to the ego (I may be a bad person! Or have been wrong!) is greater than any danger to their own body--or anyone else's (because hey, it's not *them*). Forgive me if that sounds harsh, but, I think that's the way it is.
If you need to call me and just plain rant at any time this weekend, do so. *grin* In fact, I'll ring ya tonight.
Love you much,
2004-07-01 06:45 pm (UTC)
Tonight's a bad night - Ferrett will be getting home this evening from the funeral and I need to be spending my attention on him. Tomorrow instead?
I'm sorry. It sucks to be in that sort of situation, when you HAVE to care because it's family, but you don't WANT to because they've been such shits about it. I just hope things work out for you and for her kids. I can't bring myself to hope it on her behalf anymore.
2004-07-01 06:47 pm (UTC)
Her kids are pretty much grown (20 and 15), and both have the life philosophy of striving not to be like their parents. Having grown up with that same life philosophy about mine, I know that they will make some heartbreaking mistakes, but I have hope that they will be okay.
You don't know me from Adam, and I know you mainly needed to vent, but anyway:
I represent people in Social Security hearings for Disability. Tell her that it is not hard to get; it is not pointless to apply. It can be a long process, yes, but I've seen a lot people get benefits. Also, if you qualify for SSI, you're automatically given Medicaid and that fact alone is worth it for some people.
You can get the application forms from Social Security. They're easy to fill out, and someone at that office can help you. You can be very general on these forms - I've seen applications that say nothing more than "I feel sick alot." Tell her to give all her medical records to Social Security herself; there's no guarantee that Social Security will collect those records for her. If those show that she can't handle a regular work week because of medical problems, there's a good chance she'll win.
Legal Services is a great resource. If she doesn't know her local office, here's
a listing of the offices for each state.
You sound like you know all of these things already, so I hope you don't mind me jumping in. I should also disclaimer this and say that I'm being incredibly general about what the law is, so she should see someone who can talk about her individual situation.
I'll be keeping your family in my thoughts.
No, I only had a vague idea. I can at least give her this information now and maybe that will help her get on the stick. Thank you so much for speaking up.
2004-07-01 06:46 pm (UTC)
I know people exactly like that. Nothing is ever their fault, everybody's an "asshole" out to get them. Like the landlords, the police, child services, and anybody who expects them to turn out to a job on a regular basis, pay their bills and prioritize their life. A million handouts and a million excuses later nothing has changed.
Your combatting someone elses lifelong habit, whats worse is when you have several people like this together because they enable each other.
You need to distance yourself, which I know is hard when they're family. But you can't live their lives for them, you've already done the saints load trying to help them, and they're going to make you nuts with their lack of initiative.
It's tough. I'm the big sister, and did the child-rearing for a portion of her youth. She has always identified closely with Mom, who had some of these same issues when she was younger.
But it kills me to give up.
I know people like that, I am RELATED to people like that.
It's frustrating, and heartbreaking -- especially when you feel in your heart that their actions will lead to an early death. :(
I really feel for you. But you went above and beyond, at least you can get some comfort in that.
I wish I could feel that comfort just now....
2004-07-01 06:58 pm (UTC)
I've been going through something very similar with my family, that I will not get into here, because this isn't about me. I will, however, let you know what I have learned.
Sometimes, the best love is tough love, and while it seems cruel or selfish, sometimes you just have to say to someone "Look, I can't deal with this anymore. It's about time you do something for yourself. I'll be around to help, but I can't do everything, get off your ass, and deal with it."
You've said as much in your posts on depression. Sometimes it just has to be that way for other things too. Your sister and her husband need to take responsibility for themselves, and if they don't, well, they need to learn the consequences.
It just feels like it's sink or swim time.
No matter what you choose though, Gini, I wish you the best luck in the world. You have a magnificent heart, and I wish there was some way that I ~knew~ would help with the situation. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts. That includes Ferrett.
2004-07-02 01:54 am (UTC)
The thing is, they aren't even asking for help. She doesn't call if I don't call, they haven't even inquired if there are any funds left. There is some left, reserved in case she asks to be flown out here to see a specialist, but I've offered and I'm not gonna offer again. She has to try, at least marginally.
Unfortunately, I can relate to that all too well due to the latest disaster in my life.
I very sincerely hope that your sister doesn't go down the same road my cousin did. I'll be prayin' like Hell that somehow, someway they'll "get it" before it's too late.
And I'll be praying 'n' sending the positive thoughts/vibes out for you, too.
God, I am so sorry. Sorry that you are going through that and sorry that I missed that entry. My love and prayers are with you.
My mother is disabled, vision, and I go through this with her constantly. Dealing with my mom and your sister seem a lot alike. I love my mother, but she has a sense of entitlement and nothing is her fault, even when she has 3 higher ed degrees! See, because people discriminate against the disabled. And if she gets a job it would only be for pity anyway, so she wouldn't want that. She shouldn't move because it's too much of a hardship on her, all the things to do. She shouldn't have cataract surgery because... well, it might work, but that nagging 30% that she might need a second surgery is too much for her to bare. Any little nuance of tone from anyone (her friends, church, her mother, and my brother) can turn her back into the spineless jelly who applies for maybe 2 jobs a month and complains about how bad the job market is for teachers... except she's only applied to 3 different schools!
It is the hardest thing in the world to watch someone you love who has so much capability turn not only on you but on themselves. I'm sorry your sister isn't doing what's necessary because others have echoed her doubts to her. They're the loudest voices, not the ones of hope and health. I'm sorry that her husband isn't helping or taking responsibility for his end in this mess. I'm sorry your mom is enabling the situation.
We aren't only products of our environment. There are situations like these where some of us come out and wonder "What the fuck?" and are better for it. Hurt, jaded, and suspicious, but also still full of hope, love, and pride. There is always that one good biscuit in the pan of burnt. You are a wonderful sister, a good woman, and your efforts...no matter how thrown off, are not useless. The moment you choose to walk away, that's also not failure or not caring, it might be the best caring you can do.
2004-07-01 10:25 pm (UTC)
Social anxiety disorders
There are medications for things like depressions and panic attacks which can also help people like this. I know, they have to want help and they have to take the medications, but sometimes, once you've forced it on them, they see how much better they can be and they want it to stay that way.
If not, they have to suffer tough love or you have to be willing to sacrifice you life, money and well-being to support them. Your choice.
I know so many people like that. Starting with my now ex-husband, and working up to two of my past roommates. Never their fault that they didn't have jobs, or couldn't support themselves.
I was always the one to step in and try to make things better, offering them money, places to stay, alternatives.
Sometimes, there's just nothing you can do.
But venting is always good.