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After elation, the sinking grind [Jan. 21st, 2005|06:26 pm]
Zoethe
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Grades posting late means I didn't get even one weekend to enjoy them. I added up the assignments I have to read for the coming week: over 250 pages.

Now, reading a law school textbook is nothing like reading a novel. It's not even much like reading a history book. I abandoned highlighters after the first semester, because the object to reading a law school textbook is to take such good notes that you will never had to go back and reread any of it again. You must digest each case and thought into a few paragraphs and note the important points. I do this by propping the textbook up between my keyboard and my monitor and literally typing up my outline as I go along.

This means that I am able to read about 10 pages per half hour. Which means that my homework - the actual, working part of it - will take around 13 hours this weekend. Plus the absolutely essential stretching the neck, walking around a bit, taking a shower.

I used to get up at 4am on weekday mornings very early and do my homework, but that contributed to my weight gain and general poor health. I am exercising in the mornings, and working on getting enough sleep. So no more morning study sessions. It has to get done on the weekends.

We're going to see House of Flying Daggers this evening. That will be the sum total of my recreation for the weekend.

I'll just keep reminding myself: it's only 15 weeks. It's only 15 weeks....
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[User Picture]From: kellirose1313
2005-01-21 03:51 pm (UTC)
It's a very, very, extremely good movie!
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[User Picture]From: serref
2005-01-21 03:53 pm (UTC)
You got this.
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[User Picture]From: heathrow
2005-01-21 03:56 pm (UTC)
You can do this. We know and have faith in you.
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[User Picture]From: expansive_vista
2005-01-21 04:08 pm (UTC)
Hi. I found you on jinzi's friends list.

I just graduated from law school in May 2003. Yes, you too can graduate!! It is doable.

Congrats on your grades this semester. The fact that they were posted late in no way diminishes your accomplishment!

Although it was like a bad drug flashback to read your stress about grades. *grin*
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-21 08:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I have faith I will make it, but very high expectations of how I should do. One week into classes is not the time to be hard on myself, really.
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[User Picture]From: expansive_vista
2005-01-25 09:53 am (UTC)
You're right that it is a bit too early to start beating yourself up quite so much.

I completely understand about having high expectations. I did GREAT my first semester, and not so great my second semester. I spent the next two years clawing my way back into the top 10%...it was a struggle, and some days I questioned my sanity. Other days I know everyone around me wanted to kick my ass for bitching about getting an 89, when all my friends scored in the 70s. (My law school uses a 100 point grading scale rather than a 4 point one.)

Ahhh, such fun. You want to know the really sick part? I actually truly ENJOYED my law school experience.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-25 10:14 am (UTC)
I did very well my first year and was #7 in my class, then last fall I did dreadfully - a lot of personal life upheaval combined with a Property prof who shocked pretty much everybody with her grading. It cost me the top 10%, and I am not certain that I will ever get all the way back up there. I did drop Antitrust, though, because I realized that it would be highly detrimental to my overall performance and I just can't afford that.

I LOVE law school, so I understand what you are saying. It's just tough with the fulltime job as well.
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[User Picture]From: wundergeek
2005-01-21 04:33 pm (UTC)
While art school is a huge amount of work, law school beats art hands down. Still, I feel your pain. Working and going to school and trying to have some semblance of a relationship with friends and husbands all at the same time is very hard. But you'll make it through, I'm sure.
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[User Picture]From: cathawk
2005-01-21 05:44 pm (UTC)
I hope it's as painless as possible....Reading law cases was the densest reading I ever did in my doctoral program. I only had them intensively in one course and then occasionally in others. I know that I have a tendency to take study breaks with food, especially with very slow going work.
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[User Picture]From: jmfunnyface
2005-01-21 05:44 pm (UTC)
I am so impressed with you not only going to law school, but also having a job and raising a family. And getting a 4.0 last semester on top of that. You're awesome.

I'm hoping to apply to law school at night this upcoming fall. I hope I can do it half as well as you are. Enjoy your movie tonight. You've earned it.
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[User Picture]From: thewayne
2005-01-21 10:45 pm (UTC)

Ooooh! HoFD -- great film!

I love seeing the damage to the swords as the fight winds on and on.

Have you seen Shaolin Soccer or Hero? The guy who did Soccer has a new film coming out called Kung Fu Hussle, promises to be quite silly and has great screeners. http://www.comingsoon.net/films.php?id=6114
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-22 07:57 am (UTC)

Re: Ooooh! HoFD -- great film!

Saw Hero, but not Shaolin Soccer - I really wantee to, but it wasn't here in town for very long and we missed it.

I thought Flying Daggers was beautiful, but not nearly as satisfying as Hero or Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon.
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[User Picture]From: thewayne
2005-01-22 08:52 am (UTC)

Shaolin Soccer

I don't know where you live, but check Blockbuster. And I'm sure you can get it from Netflix. The DVD that I borrowed is double-sided with the American and Chinese releases, the Chinese one is almost half an hour longer, I don't know what the diff is as I haven't watched the American version yet.

I personally prefered HoFD over Hero, I found the story more interesting. But I'll forgive you your preference. :-)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-22 09:59 am (UTC)

Re: Shaolin Soccer

Yeah, I know we can rent it. It's just finding time to watch it....
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[User Picture]From: thewayne
2005-01-22 10:00 am (UTC)
That's always the problem, isn't it? I picked up a copy of From Hell on 12/24, haven't touched it yet. But that's an extreme selection, it's not a movie that you casually pop in for a pleasant evening.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-22 10:02 am (UTC)
It was very good, however.
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[User Picture]From: ytaya
2005-01-22 02:00 am (UTC)
This was exactly the inspiration I needed to get off my butt and write my essay this weekend: thank you.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-22 07:58 am (UTC)
"Someone has an even bitchier schedule than I"?

[g]

Glad it helped!
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[User Picture]From: cyan_blue
2005-01-22 12:52 pm (UTC)
I do this by propping the textbook up between my keyboard and my monitor and literally typing up my outline as I go along.

That was what I did in grad school too. Insured I never needed to read the flippin' article/book again...
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[User Picture]From: tygher
2005-01-24 12:29 am (UTC)
*hugs* That's one thing I -don't- miss about being in school ... much as I'd like to continue, I don't like reading dry textbooks.

Do let us know how the movie was though .. I'm actually dying to see that one. We have recently seen Phantom of the Opera and Lemony Snickett's Series of Unfortunate Events, both of which delighted me, in different ways. If you haven't seen them, I highly suggest it .. if you find the time. :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-01-24 02:51 am (UTC)
Have seen Lemony Snicket, but not Phantom. Enjoyed it very much.

I will write up impressions of HoFD today.
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