?

Log in

No account? Create an account
In which I dearly love my friends list, while simultaneously wishing to strangle them - The Fucking Bluebird of Goddamn Happiness [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
Zoethe

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

In which I dearly love my friends list, while simultaneously wishing to strangle them [Mar. 20th, 2005|02:29 pm]
Zoethe
[Current Mood |stressedstressed]

In a protected entry earlier today, I wrote how my weight loss plan has stalled a bit in the face of all the stress of school, Kristi's recovery, and work. I haven't gained anything, but my workout schedule has been off and I have plateaued. I'm getting back on schedule, workout-wise, but wrote that it was frustrating. The good thing, I wrote, is that I've avoided the food-as-consolation pitfall.

Many loving people wrote with sympathy and support for my plight. They wrote to cheer me on, and with wonderful suggestions. Get a manicure or pedicure. Take a bubble bath. Do something nice for yourself.

Excellent ideas. But if I had time to do something nice for myself, I wouldn't be stressed!!!!

Got up at 8:30, did Bankruptcy homework until 1pm. Worked out (45 minutes on the NordicTrack, 4 miles, go me), made myself some lunch and ate it. Now I'm back at the desk, getting set up for another round of Evidence reading, followed by a paper I have to write.

Tomorrow, it's back to work. School all week, and then next weekend the same amount of homework.

I'm really ready for this semester to be over.
LinkReply

Comments:
[User Picture]From: shezan
2005-03-20 07:43 pm (UTC)
Just emailed you a series of ebooks I LOVE.

Not that you have time to read, natch...
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-20 07:59 pm (UTC)
I will put them on the laptop for those down times between classes. Thank you!

(And believe it or not, I actually picked up a couple of Star Wars books for reading on the bus! Aaron Allston rules, but wow have I missed out on a lot.)
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: brujah
2005-03-20 07:43 pm (UTC)
If it's any consolation, dollface, at my GBS support group we're told to embrace plateaus. The longer you remain at a certain weight, the less a chance you have of going over it again. The theory goes, anyway. Also, folks tend to plateau at weights they've held in the past for any length of time.

So, your plateau means your lifestyle change is working. :)
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-20 07:54 pm (UTC)
That does help some. Thanks.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: kimmaline
2005-03-20 11:11 pm (UTC)
Hey...that even helped me. Thanks!

But, wait...how long is this plateau nonsense going to stick? :)
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: brujah
2005-03-20 11:19 pm (UTC)
I've had them last upwards of three months before.

Bleh.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-20 11:25 pm (UTC)
These are not words I wished to hear. But it did help, and I am focusing on the lifestyle change thing.

(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: kimmaline
2005-03-21 09:38 am (UTC)
Yeah, I didn't want to hear it either. It sucks. But, especially since I can't work out, I'm taking my inspiration from you, and focusing on being as healthy as possible.

See, that's JUST what you needed, the pressure of being an inspiration, too. I need to quit typing before I step any deeper. :)
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-21 09:59 am (UTC)
Naw, I'm enough of an egomaniac that it's inspiring. [g]
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zarhooie
2005-03-20 07:46 pm (UTC)
When you are working out, try listening to a book on tape. That always helps me... I work out for 3 chapters.
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-20 07:55 pm (UTC)
I do read for pleasure when I work out. Though "for pleasure" at this point is a scholarly text on pre-historic religions in the British Isles. [g]
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: labelleizzy
2005-03-20 07:48 pm (UTC)
I agree with velvetsteel, plus adding that if you hang out for a bit at a plateau weight it gives your mind _and_ body time to get adjusted to the new lower weight.

*sigh*
I think that one of the many reasons I regained the weight after the wedding (I went down to about 155 from 180(?) to wear my wedding dress) is that I didn't really believe I _was_ 155.

wish I had. it's lots easier to dance when you're lighter!

oh, and I'm going to try to stop complaining about _my_ schedule. You've got it way worse than me. *hugs* and good luck! Keep on truckin'...
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: yndy
2005-03-20 07:52 pm (UTC)
Excellent ideas. But if I had time to do something nice for myself, I wouldn't be stressed!!!!

I. Love. You.

This is exactly what I've wanted to say many a time...
Worse yet, it's not like you can honestly relax and enjoy something like that when you KNOW that you've got a zillion things you *should* be doing instead!!

Hang in there - I'm having that kind of a week to. I gave myself permission to go into a holding pattern diet-wise until after Easter...
It's not about losing v. gaining - it's about a lifestyle change...
In the end, I'd say we're both doing okay by not falling into the pitfalls when we do take the occasional break.

*hugs*
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: wilfulcait
2005-03-20 09:31 pm (UTC)
Law school is hard, tedious, stressful and sometimes boring. Doing it while working and having a family life is an incredible challenge.

Challenges can be surmounted, but sometimes the process is miserable.

The fact that you can squeeze as much into your day as you do is amazing. If you don't have time to have a bubblebath or a pedicure, it's not because of poor time management; there are only so many hours in a day, and yours are all spoken for, some of them twice.

But the best thing about law school is that it is finite. Then it's over, and then there's practice, and practice is fun. It's fun, it pays well, it is infinitely more interesting than law school, and unless you go into hardcore litigation, it will be less stressful almost all of the time.

Hang in there. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and it's not an oncoming train.
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: jessihiggs
2005-03-20 09:50 pm (UTC)

Solutions to help you find time for yourself!

I know how you feel... that is why I have stopped sleeping. I don't sleep anymore so now I can do those nice things for myself like taking a bubble bath or getting a massage.

You'll be amazed how much more time you have, when you can convince yourself that you don't need sleep. Living on a steady diet of liquid caffeine helps to speed you up, so have at it! Drink five pots of coffee and some diet coke, helps with the weight-loss too. You may want to consider chain smoking as well - gets the adrenaline going so you can work even faster.

You'll look like hell, develop paranoia, and might have a heart attack but, at least you'll have time for yourself.

Yeah, I know how you feel.
(Reply) (Thread)
From: williaej
2005-03-21 01:02 am (UTC)

Re: Solutions to help you find time for yourself!

It worked for me! I have so much more time for myself since I gave up sleep--I can get my work done, have time for a little fun, keep the house clean, cook a nice supper, get more work done, get even more work done, and squeeze in some Magic Online, clean the shower, take a nice long bath, and actually pee!

How did I give up sleep, you ask? Why, it's all thanks to the magic of the placebo effect. See, I've all-but given up caffiene (there's surprisingly little in iced tea, and all the carbonated beverages I consume are caffiene free), but I drink a Caffiene-Free Diet Pepsi when I start to get tired! And I stop feeling tired!
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: i_descend
2005-03-20 10:08 pm (UTC)
Any chance you could bat your eyes at theferrett and get him to give you a nice foot rub while doing your homework? You'd still be being productive, while having a nice stress release.
(Reply) (Thread)
(Deleted comment)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-21 02:09 am (UTC)
That's a terrible thing for a dispatcher to say!

;-)

How's school going for you? I'm SO far behind on my friends list... [whimper]
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: kathrynrose
2005-03-21 02:43 am (UTC)
Love ya.

::Stepping away quietly::

I'm sending peaceful, relaxing thoughts. ;)
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: roniliquidity
2005-03-21 01:27 pm (UTC)
I made similar post near the end of school and one helpful thing I was told was to breathe. To pause and take, I think 10, deep breaths. I'm not clear on the mechanics of it, something about triggering a chemical response that helps you calm down, I dunno. It only takes a minute, and at least it can't hurt. I really wish I would have remembered that during the handfasting planning.
*************************************

Ok, tested my own advice. I think I'm less stressed. A little dizzy, but less stressed.
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: jadziaesq
2005-03-21 06:40 pm (UTC)
I do know how you feel. I didn't workout at all last week. But I had a nice restful and productive weekend and I am in gear again to workout.

I have a question, are you in law school?
(Reply) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-21 06:46 pm (UTC)
Yes, I am in law school at night and working fulltime.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: jadziaesq
2005-03-21 06:49 pm (UTC)
You are crazy! I give you a lot of credit though, I don't think I could have gotten through law school with a full time job.

Also as for finding time for yourself, I have that problem too. It is hard and I am not very successful at it. So my suggestion, is do it when you really need it.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-21 07:02 pm (UTC)
This is the time of year when I tend to agree with you - I *am* crazy! That is part of the reason why I have not taken summer courses, even though they would have helped me graduate in 3-1/2 years rather than the 4 that the night program entails. I simply would not have survived with anything approaching intact sanity.

I work as a paralegal, which is good practical experience for what I am doing, and I think that being older is actually helpful in having a realistic approach to law school. I have the aded advantage of having already "done" law school once as the girlfriend to my first husband, who I met at the beginning of his law school career.

I noted that in your profile you said that law school killed your love of reading. I am relieved to say that it hasn't had that effect on me. In the first year I mentioned that I made myself find time for pleasure rading, and people were amazed. I don't get through a lot of books these days, but I do use my workout time for reading history or spirituality and my bus ride for "junk fiction."

One more year of law school, after this semester.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: jadziaesq
2005-03-21 07:08 pm (UTC)
Yes, law school did kill it. I really do hate that. But I have always been a slow reader, and it took some much longer to read law school books b/c you had understand and interpret the cases that I just didn't have time for the pleasure reading. Now I don't have time for it b/c I read so much at work and I have kids. ButI replaced reading with cross-stitch. It helped me get through studying for the bar and it helps me unwind. I am just waiting for that one book that comes out that I tell myself that I have to read. Plus I read to my son most nights, So as he gets older, I think we are going to get into Harry Potter and those other books.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-03-21 07:04 pm (UTC)
P.S. - I added you to my fitness filter, since you seem to be working on the same journey. Hope you don't mind!
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: jadziaesq
2005-03-21 07:09 pm (UTC)
No I don't mind at all. We must unite if our common goal will be achieved.
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)