You're an inspiration in this (and so much more too)
I do solemnly swear I'm going to clean off my treadmill and use the damned thing in lieu of whining that my jeans are too tight. Surprisingly enough, whining is not burning as much calories as one might think.
Keep up the good work, Gini!
Part of it is not bearing yourself up for having to start slow. My workout routines suffered so many false starts because I pushed myself too hard, made myself miserable, and it was a relief to fail.
Half a mile at 2.5 mph is not failure, if that is where you need to start. It's half a mile you wouldn't have walked otherwise. (That's often the way I get myself on the NordicTrack - I have to start. I may only go for five minutes, but I have to start. Then once I'm there, I'm fine.)
BEATING yourself up. Not BEATING yourself up.
There is nothing about my diet that has any "fad" aspects. I haven't cut carbs. I haven't eschewed all refined foods. I haven't started eating only "superfoods" or tried to do food combinations or purchased any supplements or had any surgery. I most certainly haven't deprived myself of good food.
God. that's it! That's the secret. People have asked me what I am doing to lose weight and they totally lose interest the minute I tell them that. Most people want to hear "quick fix" not "change your entire outlook on food and your lifestyle".
Breakfast has been a huge thing for me. We have a cafeteria here with YUMMY (read: fattening) food. I have had to start bringing my breakfast. I have a half cup of Fiber One mixed with a 6 oz container of Yoplait Light fruit flavored (usually blueberry) yogurt. I don't like milk and cereal, so this was my compromise. The whole thing is 160 calories, no saturated fat and 14 grams of fiber!
So anyway, I started out at 272 on Jan 29th of this year and I am sitting at 253.5 right now. It's a slow process, but I'm working on it day by day. I lost about 40 lbs 5 years ago and gained it all back of course. I am working hardest to change my mindset so that doesn't happen again.
*hugs* I'm glad we can all do this together!
The gaining back is so frustrating. I always felt completely out of control, like I simply could NOT keep making healthy food choices. I literally didn't know how to eat, and compulsively ate everything. It's hard for someone who has never been through it to understand how you can do amazingly stupid things to yourself and not be able to stop. I don't even understand it.
Learning to do this the right way is such an impowering process. I'm glad you are on the same journey!
I was feeling very out of control as well. I would just BINGE on food and NOT CARE. And then I would feel sorry for myself cause I was so fat, and getting fatter...and it would strike the cycle again. Also, I am a big time boredom eater. That's been hard to break but I've really tried to find healthy things to put in my mouth or drinking a really huge glass of water.
I'm fortunate in that I carry my weight very well. So I knew when I started gaining in places (like my tummy) where I usually do not carry weight, that I was having a problem that needed to be changed. And soon.
I would just BINGE on food and NOT CARE. And then I would feel sorry for myself cause I was so fat, and getting fatter...and it would strike the cycle again.
I know this cycle. I mean, it is sick and twisted to open a can of frosting and eat it with a spoon - not a bite or two, the whole can. And yet, I could do that. And did. And hated myself, but couldn't bear the thought of NOT doing it. What kind of chemical disjunct leads to such behavior?
The boredom eating is still a struggle on weekends when I am studying for so many hours. I should buy carrots to munch on or something, but...yuck. so, I wander into the kitchen, look around, decide not to eat anything, wander out....
My lowest point was when I ate two Big Macs from McD's, telling myself it was all right cause I didn't get fries. And I've binged out at Taco Bell as well.
As for the snacking thing, have you ever tried Luna Bars
? They are so good, and actually good for you. I am not a fan of "granola" or "snack/energy" bars at all, but these actually taste
good. My favorites are Dulce de Leche, Nutz Over Chocolate and Chai Tea.
Buying Luna Bars also supports some worthy causes</i>, and you can order them off Amazon for $10 for a box of 15.
I haven't tried them. I may look into it - thanks!
There are pictures of me when I was about 145. When I looked at them from at the time, my thought was "god, I'm still fat." Looking back at them now, I wonder how the hell I could have thought that, even for a minute.
Body image is such a weird thing. When I entered my weight on FitDay today, it projected that at my current rate of loss, in 12 weeks I will weigh 209. It actually made me a little panicky. I want to get to my goal weight, but I don't know that I'm ready for it yet. It's all very strange.
Yeah, I think it will. And the chances of me losing at this rate that steadily aren't necessarily real high.
I never stopped having my periods, thank heavens. My bad body image issues were not helped by my highly insensitive first husband. I feel confident that this time around I have someone who will really listen to me when I need to talk about such things.
Two of Hubby One's stellar moments:
The first time I got really thin, we were having sex and I suddenly felt very small and vulnerable, which kind of panicked me. I told him about it later and he said, "Well that's stupid."
When I weighed in at 132 pounds and was killing myself working out every day (continually stiff and sore from it), I was in the livingroom working out to a tough tape, and he walked by and said, "You know, your thighs could use some work."
That was the day I gave up. I was never going to make him happy; why should I make myself so unhappy?
Getting enough fiber is really, really tough, especially when you're going for natural fiber (instead of Metamucil or something). What else do you do for fiber than All-Bran? I add peas to a lot of things, and use cereal as well, but usually come up short.
P.S. My old dietician said that fiber and water are two sources of energy (I went there complaining of a lack of energy)
First of all, I eat a double dose of All-Bran, so that takes care of a lot of it (though I confess that I haven't been good about this for the last few days - being mildly sick I simply haven't been able to face it). Other than that, salad and fruit.
I don't make it every day, but I do try.
Have you ever tried Fiber One
? I mentioned this to Gini above, but I love to mix it with a cup of low fat fruit flavored yogurt for breakfast. It give the yogurt some bulk and crunch, and also goes a long way to giving me the 25+ grams of Fiber per day. 14 grams in 1/2 cup!
Thank you! It's going on the shopping list I'm making right now!!!
It has a pretty decent, naturally sweet flavor too, so if you like cereal and milk (which I do not), you would probably enjoy Fiber One that way as well.
2005-03-25 04:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you... I needed to read this today...
and (¯`'·.¸(¯`'·.¸ Wooohoooo!!! Congrats on the 38.4 so far!!!¸.·'´¯)¸.·'´¯)
Thanks. It made ME happy to see that number this morning!
Oh, I'm really glad I asked to be on the filter! This is remarkably similar to what I'm doing - while I'm still working on a exercise regime that works for me, I'm doing *something* every day, and generally just trying to eat better, add a multivitamin, drink lots of water, etc. I haven't actually lost weight yet so much as gained it, but I know I'm living a healthier life, so I'll just wait. I'm not overweight enough to really worry about it - I'm just over 160, at 5'5" with a pretty solid frame, so I'm just looking to lose 15 pounds or so and really just be healthier.
Oh, yeah, with only that much weight to lose the last thing you want to do is get on some fad diet that screws up your metabolism. There is a reason why people who lose weight fast gain back what they lost and more, and fad diets are directly responsible for that. Just working out, eating healthy, and getting enough sleep (it's amazingly important) will move you toward your goals.
though I knew how to suffer and deprive myself to thin, I didn't know how to LIVE thin.
This is GOLD, and I really, really need to keep that difference in mind. Thank you.
I didn't realize you're older than me (only three years - I'll be 44 in a couple of weeks). How old were you when you went back to school to study law? I thought you were younger than me.
Oh, gosh no. I am definitely older than almost everybody on the internet! [g]
I was, in fact, your age when I went back to law school.
Ok, well, consider my tree shaken.
You just continue to inspire.
If it makes you feel any better, I just turned 53 on Sunday. *g*
It makes ME feel better to read your success. I need to lose about 30 pounds (5' 2", 150 lbs now). I always tell myself that I have to get xxx done, and just never climb on that treadmill. I tell myself that I do a lot of walking in the school hallways to round up my next therapy group. (Every half hour, once around the school as I collect them from diverse rooms.) And it may help - I might be heavier without that - but it doesn't contribute to losing what I already have.
Thanks for being so open and candid.
Making time for working out isn't always easy. I used to do most of my homework very early in the morning before going to work, but that meant that I had no time for working out, and I was short-changing myself on sleep, which led to binge eating to get my bloodsugar up so that I could stay awake.
Now I work out every morning, but my weekends are pretty well eaten up by homework. It's frustrating, but I try to focus on the long-term goals.
Walking undoubtedly does help, but something more aerobic will help more. Good luck.
And I wouldn't trade being there for The Beatles and the 60s and landing on the moon and watching Star Wars completely change movies. I love being the age that I am.
Congratulations! Your progress is inspiring.
I'm still working towards my goal weight (155-160). I'm in the middle of a cold now, so my working out schedule has been disrupted, but I've lost ten pounds so far, eight inches and about 4% body fat. I need to start watching what I eat more (I relaxed a little bit on the salads after my first month), but I'm feeling much healthier, and I can see the difference. (My double chin is gone!)
Keep it up!
Wow, that's amazing! Especially with so much going on in your life, you've done a wonderful job! :)
I gained about 40lbs when I was pregnant with my son, and over the past 5 years, I've gained about 5-10lbs a year (a large part due to medicine I had been on). I've since stopped the medicine, and am waiting for it to leave my system. So I have about 80lbs to lose, and on a 5ft frame, it's a LOT of extra weight. I'm glad to be on your list, and to hear how you are able to achieve it all. It's very inspiring, and because of it, I think I will go work out right now! :)
It's a wonderful feedback loop. People tell me that when they are thinking of skipping a workout or eating crap, they think of me and make good decisions. And when I am tempted by such things, I think of the people on this list - to whom I will have to confess - and make good decisions!
Ditto on the inspiration. I know I've told you a million times, but it's a great help for me...although (you have my permission to slap me) I get REALLY jealous when I hear about you exercising. Yeah, I know. But...it just sounds so satisfying, and my whopping 15 pounds since the first of the year would be so much nicer if it was your 40. :)
But, at least I have the satisfaction of hating the people who say to me, "I just can't
exercise!!!" No, I
can't exercise. (and that kind of loathing burns a LOT of calories)
And for anyone not on it...FitDay is the best thing in the history of ever. I've found that Calorie King
is a pretty damn good program too...maybe even better because it's an expanded FitDay with TONS of foods in it to search...but it has a yearly fee and by the time I found it I'd already had so much info into FitDay! I love being able to see where I was a few months ago, and Calorie King won't let you go backward.
Calorie King has a HUGE searchable (free) database of foods. Lots of chain restaurants, etc. It is the second best thing I've done since the start of this.
Very cool. I have added it to my list of resources - thanks.
And, good job!
Nice - I like this one.
The PC version looks really good, but having it on the web means I can log in from work. Hrm, what to do, what to do.
I've kept it on the web, precisely for that reason. It didn't seem worth it to me to spend the twenty bucks to have less access. I put in what I ate pretty much as soon as I eat it, that way I can keep track of how many calories I have left for the day, and pace myself. Like zoethe
said, all that the PC version really does is make it faster.
Calorie King is amazing, too...they give you a free seven day trial.
You are doing so wonderfully. Over the last few days, I've been feeling very yucky due to a sinus infection and my daughter being ill.
I'm so tempted to give myself a "break" from eating healthily and exercising til life gets easier. Then I read one of your posts and remove those excuses. :D
-sweaty from finishing a 2 mile WATP for Abs DVD. :D
Good for you. We just walked to the used book store each carrying a box of books to sell. Only about a mile and a half round trip, but it was something.
I think that sounds like a great form of practical exercise!
I hope today's studying goes easily. Enjoy a nice cuppa tea at some point!
Hi, I found your journal while reading dreagoddess
's, and just found this really inspiring :D I made a goal to adopt a new healthier lifestyle, just recently (like a few days ago recently), and I'd really like to be able to keep reading about your progress. So, um, I added you to my friendslist, and I'd really appreciate it if you'd add me to your fitness filter. Thanks :)
Consider yourself added. Hi!
Hi! I think what you're doing is faboo! Its definitely a great mindset. Can I be added to your fitness filter, please? I found you through 100pluswl. Thanks :)
You're on now! I don't write about fitness all the time, but most of my locked posts are about it.
Its all good :) Either way, its a new friend!
2005-11-11 03:03 am (UTC)
I'd like to be on your fitness filter, if you don't mind. I've seen a couple posts marked Fitness Filter that go away, so I'm assuming you're locking them to fitness-friends only.
Commenting here because it was the "Fitness Filter" entry in your memories. Hope that works.
2005-11-11 03:13 am (UTC)
Re: Fitness Filter