|That kind of day:
||[Jul. 29th, 2005|02:33 pm]
ME, to SUZANNE, one of the secretaries in the office: "Okay, I'm really going to eat my lunch now."
SUZANNE: "What?! It's 2:30 in the afternoon!"
ME: "I know it's frivolous, but don't try to stop me!"
SUZANNE: "You know you're crazy, right?"
LoL! My lunch is at 200, usually...if I get one :/. Splits my day quite nicely. Even if I come in at 7am, I KNOW there are only 2 or so hours to go, after my lunch...
of course, my work is wonkey thatta way...
I eat lunch, but almost always at my desk. I generally aim for about 1pm, because noon leaves so much aternoon. 2:30 was getting kinda late, though.
So far we have only known each other in passing.
And, I guess what I’m going to write about doesn’t even fit this entry of yours- but it is the most recent one you wrote- and I don’t much feel ling scrolling back to find your latest weight loss. This is going to be a bit of a long reply- You always have been so gracious before.
I weigh over 350 pounds- and I’m stick of it. Just sick of it. I can’t believe that I’m wasting my twenties feeling like the way I do now. I have found inspiration in your practical approach to weight loss, and have known that it is no real secret to lose weight. But it’s the courage to change that I need.
I would normally turn to my Fiancé for the support I need, and he will support me the best way he knows how- but he weighs 150ish- and is as tall as me! In fact he works hard as a painter in the heat all day- and his body is (much to my delight) starting to fill out with the sexy muscles! But in the end- he will never understand the heart ache of having a body that is 150+ pounds over weight. He loves me for who I am, but I need to take better care of myself starting now.
The next thing that spurred me to this idea was the fact that while my Fiancé may not know the pain of weight, he just recently started down the path of sobriety. I my self have never had a problem with alcohol but he has had a problem for many years. So yesterday, on his birthday, he finally made the decision to put the bottle down for good. It has spurred me to once again to look at my own mal treatment of my body. I don’t view my weight to be any better or worse than an alcohol problem. I need to get into control. But much like I can’t help my Fiancé with his sobriety other than love and support- I need to find someone who is a little bit more familiar in weight loss.
I have tried PAYING for diets and support groups- but I don’t want to subscribe to a health club, or pay someone to tell me what to eat. I always seem to lose my way- and I feel this time- this attempt I’m going to do it my own way. And after seeing your success and your great photos- I wanted to turn to you for advice and support.
Someone to write to. Someone to talk with. Someone to help me make the right choices, but not hide behind a fad, corporate name, or health club. Someone who knows how important it is to have the delicate things in life. Great tasting food- and mixing up the work outs.
You do it without all those things- and you’re doing it in real life! With all the balls of yarn it’s handing you- you’re having real success in your weight loss.
So- here’s my thing. Would you be a daily pen pal for me? Would you be willing to help me up? Hold my hand for a little bit with tips? Cry with me? Celebrate with me?
I’m going to keep this entry on your replies instead of emailing it to you to show a public gratification to you. You’re a bright beautiful person, and I think even your journals presence affects, changes, and inspires people to be more intelligent.
I really do appreciate you.
I am glad to provide mutual support and cheerleading!
I am also leaving town in the morning and will have minimal e-mail access for the next week, so don't be upset if I don't answer right away.
Congratulations on making a healthy decision.
Heh- no I wouldn't be. But I do have a lot of questions. I think you wrote about it before- and I don't want to distract you from your work day too much- but how did you start off?
How did you decide how much to eat in a day? I know we have different bodies- so the number will be different. I also have a basic understanding of moderation, portions, and timely eating habits. It's just the basic aim that i'm not sure to reach for.
I think the first thing I'm going to kick is the Soda, and any other warning foods. (Any candy- for example.) And I'm going to try to stock up the kitchen with snackable snakums. Carrot sticks are some of my favorites- so are green bell peppers. (and bannana peppers.)
How did you start off in those first few days? Isn't there a website you use to track your weight loss?
. I still love love love it. It's worth the $19.99 to download.
And here is my "plan."
Kicking junk food was an absolute must for me. I have no self-control in its presence - even if I'm not hungry, I just keep stuffing it in.
Just remember not to undereat. You shouldn't be starving yourself, because it's counterproductive.
I had one of those today - the last day before I'm on leave for two weeks, so of course my boss is away and I have approximately three thousand and seventy-eight new things to take care of on top of my normal work, and it all has to be done by the end of the day. Whew.