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How does this happen? [Sep. 4th, 2005|02:19 am]
Zoethe
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At 10:30 tonight, when I was talking to Ferrett, I was about falling off my chair. Sleepy. So sleepy.

Now it's almost 2:30, and I'm still up and about. What is up with that?

Honestly, it has a lot to do with going to bed alone. Oh, there are lots of nights when I hit the hay before Ferrett, but there is that comfortable knowledge that he is here and will be joining me at some point.

When he's actually out of town, I find myself rather at loose ends.

On some levels, this distresses me. I have always been very independent, able to strike out on my own, not needing anyone. I was a turtle, and if pressed could take what I needed on my back and go.

I'mnot so much like that anymore.

Must try to sleep, though. I'm really tired.
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[User Picture]From: ewtikins
2005-09-04 08:46 am (UTC)
I get used to what it feels like to have someone else with me, and then when he is gone I wake without really knowing quite why. I think it's just because something is different.

I find that after a while it gets easier to sleep again; it's about habit, rather than dependence, for me. I don't know if looking at it that way helps at all.
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[User Picture]From: celticdragonfly
2005-09-04 11:22 am (UTC)
Oh, there are so many nights I stay up WAYYYY later than I should, because selenite hasn't gone to bed yet, and I don't want to go to bed alone. And if he's away, I *really* stay up too late.
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[User Picture]From: throbinson
2005-09-04 01:19 pm (UTC)
I reeeeeally love snuggling in bed, but I find that I sleep much more soundly when I sleep alone.
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[User Picture]From: cathawk
2005-09-04 04:07 pm (UTC)
Ayurvedic medicine teaches that our bodies kick into an alert mode around 10pm (the proverbial second wind), and so they advise going to sleep by 10pm. You can read more about it here
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2005-09-04 05:04 pm (UTC)
Yeah, that would make sense, considering the hour I have to get up in the morning. Kinda tough, though, when you don't walk through the door until 9:45 two nights a week...
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[User Picture]From: cathawk
2005-09-05 02:27 am (UTC)
Yes, that's my problem too. Some nights when I see clients I don't get home until about 9:30am.
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[User Picture]From: smldada9801
2005-09-04 05:19 pm (UTC)
I don't sleep well either when the DH is away. I find myself watching TV or reading till I cannot keep my eyes open anymore, then stumbling to bed to fall asleep with the TV on.

It's very strange to me how easily I have become accustomed to his presence and the security that comes from knowing he supports me in everything.

Even the dog doesn't sleep well when he is not here. She paces periodically all night, looking for him, waiting for him to come to bed.
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[User Picture]From: batshua
2005-09-05 01:23 pm (UTC)
When mom and her friends talked about having their guys gone, they realized they all leave the TV on to have noise in the house.

I noticed a similar thing when my whole family left me for Lubbock for a few days.

We are social creatures. When someone in our core social group is absent, we find it unsettling.
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