No matter what I did, I was never going to comfortably keep up with his pace.
My solution to this was "I run, she rides the bike". It wasn't very aerobic for her, but it was still better than just sitting on the couch. And it was time together, and we could talk. ...well, she could talk, and I could talk in between panting and wheezing. And when she got bored going so slow and went off ahead of me, I could watch her butt. All in all, I found this to be a pretty good solution.
Yeah, that sort of thing never worked, there being a level of unspoken disapproval.
1000 miles. You know, I'm actually jealous. I've recently started on the slow trek back to fitness (as in, last week). I wish I stuck with it since back when you two began your workout routine.
You know, when we started I never would have guessed I'd get this far. Good for you, getting on it again.
I support the P0wned. *g*
Good for you! :)
I had a very similar experience with climbing. When I was being hounded by my ex and being forced to climb beyond my abilities I just used to get angry and scared.
Now that I'm climbing under my own speed I've pushed myself harder than I ever have...
Very much so. Everyone's upset, no one's having fun. I am so glad I don't have to go through that anymore.
I already left this comment, but it looks like it didn't stick, so I guess i'll leave it again...
The fact that you biked almost 65 miles in such a short period of time is stupendous. Especially seeing as you did it of your own volition. Good work! You rock, of course :)
Working out and fitness were external before, something imposed upon me. Now, I realize that it's mine. I own it, I make the decisions about what to do and how to do it.
That's a good feeling.
My freshman year roommate used to do something similar - make me feel inferior about working out so that I'd reluctantly go...but I'd push myself too hard and then be too tired to go again. Last year I started gymming twice a week, which my roommate did, but she left before me so it was "my idea." This year so far I've gone swimming every weekday morning except last thursday. And I'm better at it than my former roommate is, so it's me challenging her. And I feel all skinny.
Go you!!! The nice thing about school is the availability of all that equipment!
When you're never good enough, it's hard to believe you're doing well at all.
I relate to this so much. I only hope that eventually I will reach the point you're at now. At this point in my life, it is still about him, or other people, and not yet about me. I haven't figured out how to get there yet.
I am inspired and delighted by your progress and attitude. You have no idea how much I envy those Road Runners of yours over at GN :)
2005-09-09 09:32 am (UTC)
Re: Owning It
Oh, hey, I didn't realize you had a Live Journal!
GN has been a huge inspiration this year. What a great idea, creating a place to track mileage. There have been days when I've felt completely uninspired, but gotten myself on the NordicTrack or the bike because, well, I have to get that next ducky or bike! At the beginning of the year, 500 miles seemed almost impossible.
By the way, I do have a fitness filter that I use most of the time when writing about weightloss and exercise stuff. If you're interested I can add you.
Sure, add me in. I got a LJ when I got ticked at Diaryland, but I'm too lazy to move :)