Hey, I didn't know you cross stitched. Neat! :)
I haven't for a number of years, but I'm trying to get back into it now. I'd like to get back into quilting, which I loved, but it's a bigger time commitment - you can always do a few stitches here and there.
Every Sunday, my father looks at the clock at noon and laments "Shit! Half the day is gone, already!"
Like any exercise, true sloth takes practice. Only through repetition will you shed that bothersome guilt which prevents unfettered indolence.
I used to be good at it. I think maybe it's an aging thing - fewer good days ahead than behind and all that.
Choleric people and relaxation rarely mix, unless that relaxation serves some kind of useful purpose.
(This is why blogging, my recreation, must also serve to improve my writing or I wouldn't enjoy it)
You're a lot like my husband. He has to get something "checked off" his mental to-do list every day, even rest days. So we do our best to attack those items first, so we can always stop at whatever point and relax. Then we've done _something_ while not working too hard...
2006-01-01 12:06 am (UTC)
I feel the same about sleeping in and non-activity. If I somehow feel that what I'm doing is productive or getting me closer to my goals, I'll do it till the cows come home, but slobbing around the house eating icecream and watching bad tv does nothing but make me depressed.
Zoethe, kudos on your progress. It's interesting how someone else's efforts can inspire me to try harder myself.
Ah, sloth. I grok what you're saying. I find that if I indulge in more than two days of sloth then my sleep gets broken up. It's no fun to wake up at 4:30 ayem and not be able to get back to sleep. It appears that my body has become addicted to exercise. You can well imagine how perturbed this leaves me.
Are you planning to come back to Going Nowhere? The 2006 page is up, if you want to add yourself. Or if you'd prefer, I can do it for you. I just saw your comment that you're willing to moderate the guestbook. For some reason SignMyGuestbook has stopped sending me notify e-mails when someone signs so I didn't see your offer until now. If you e-mail me, I'll send you log in instructions so you can take over the guestbook if you'd like. The spam is making me crazy :(
I'm smiling at your remark about waking up at 4:30 ayem and not be able to get back to sleep, since that is about the time I get up, most days.
I am most definitely coming back! I will be happy to help with the guestbook. Spam irritates me. I'll get my profile up so that tomorrow I can start fresh!
I think you're right. You would almost certainly benefit from even five minutes of meditation a day, if you still plan on making learning it one of your resolutions (I'm sorry, I've read so many resolutions I can't remember which belong to whom!)
I frequently feel like I don't have time to meditate, or unless I'm going to do it "perfectly" for a half hour I shouldn't do it at all, but really I know both of these are cop-outs. 5 minutes is better than no minutes, and it always seems to pay off by helping me to feel more relaxed and focused, and then I work a lot more efficiently.
I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by my own ambition, but I'm definitely going to work hard at getting in those meditation minutes.
I didn't used to be like this. Really. I don't know what changed exactly.
I must be schizoid. I am like you all day at work. I nanny, but am also responsible for laundry and keeping the house in order. I find myself feeling guilty if I sit down for any length of time, so I find new tasks to do that aren't really my responsibility. When I go home at night, HER house looks great. I get home to mine and haven't the energy or desire to do much of anything. Mine looks like piles everywhere and cleaning anything seems like fighting the tide.
That's completely understandable. You use up everything with the day job. I once knew someone who cleaned houses for a living, and she had a maid service!
I am not hampered by thoughts of 'things to do'. I can waste entire days watching absolutely nothing on TV or playing video games. I justify this as 'quality time' with the kitties. I usually have one or two (sometimes four) on my lap while I am doing little to nothing. I only do this for the good of the family. Sure, I would much rather be cleaning the bathroom, but the kitties need a comfy nap place. What am I to do?
I sort of admire this, actually. Always feeling like one should be doing something can get wearing.