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Marathon, man [Jun. 9th, 2006|07:09 pm]
Zoethe
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Sometimes you know something, but it takes actual experience to completely understand it.

For instance, I know that, beyond the maybe 5% advantage that being above-average intelligence gains you, 95% of passing the bar is just doing the frickin' work.

But now, at the end of week 3 of this insane crunch mode, as I face yet another weekend of doing pretty much nothing except studying, taking practice exams, and studying some more, I really, really am beginning to understand what it means. I am so bloody bored with it all already, and it just keeps going and going and going. I have three more weeks of adding new information before it becomes nothing but repeating the same information time and again for 3 more weeks, doing practice test after practice test, reading and rereading outlines ad infinitum. Grilling myself on elements of different actions.

And I really, really want to quit right now. I want to take the evening off, goof around, watch a movie.

That is the path to failure. So once again, I shall drag myself through another evening of studying.

6.5 weeks isn't really that long a time.
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[User Picture]From: cassiopia
2006-06-09 11:25 pm (UTC)
zoethe meet my friend mattsrants If you read his most recent entry I think you will see he knows exactly where you're coming from.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 12:19 am (UTC)
Alas, said entry of friends locked....
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[User Picture]From: dreagoddess
2006-06-09 11:43 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Honestly, with as hard of work as you've put into school already, this won't be bad. A mere two months and you'll be done done done done with it for good!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 12:22 am (UTC)
Yes, I keep trying to think of it that way....
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[User Picture]From: mollyblack
2006-06-10 12:15 am (UTC)

Law school and stuff...

My friend/ex-roommate's mom graduated from Law School two weekends ago. There's something in the air I think.

She, I think finished completely except the Bar, but yeah. She went through a lot of work to get to where she is and she is in her early 50s I believe. She just decided "what the heck" at a much older age and went for it.

I think that if things continue the way they seem to and I get better I'll eventually finish up my degree and go for an MLS. I want to finish out my years as a Librarian...
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 12:18 am (UTC)

Re: Law school and stuff...

I'm in my late 40s, so she and I are pretty darned close together. Tell her congratulations from me!
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[User Picture]From: dweezel
2006-06-10 12:20 am (UTC)
6 1/2 weeks is but a moment compared to the last 4 years. It will be over before you know it and you can look back and say, "Man I'm glad that's over."
I applaud your willpower, I wouldn't have had it that far.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 12:53 am (UTC)
Thanks. Everything in life, really, is just one little bite at a time. Must remember to look at what I need to do today, not contemplate the big picture.
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[User Picture]From: dhimahi
2006-06-10 12:22 am (UTC)
THINK about it! You are right there around the corner from the FINISH line... you have four years behind you and only a couple more weeks til you ARRIVE!

You are magna cum laude and you are just counting down the days.

Make sure you take an hour per day to ride your bike. It will clear out the cobwebs and give you a good dose of endorphins... so you will be a HAPPY Marathon man!

*huggggggggggs*
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[User Picture]From: mamaursula
2006-06-10 12:22 am (UTC)
After law school, what's another 6.5 weeks?

Please take this the way I intend it, which is nicely. I knew you were a second (third?) career student, but I don't know that I could start law school in my 40's. Of course, I started nursing school in my 30's, so maybe I'll be looking for another career change in about 15 more years too. I think you'll do great, experience goes a long way in situations like this. I have been told that I intimidate some of the older nurses because of my autonomy. I have to remind them that I'm not some 20 something right out of school with no life experiences. I think students like us do better because we have a clear picture of the alternatives.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2006-06-10 12:51 am (UTC)
I had a number of professors who absolutely adored older part time students, because they weren't just "tabula rasa", taking everything in, but were experienced people who had a lot of feedback and additional information to add to class discussion.
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[User Picture]From: mentalwasteland
2006-06-10 01:28 am (UTC)
Not to wish more study time on you, but part of me wishes it was thee weeks longer, just for the bad jokes...
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 01:31 am (UTC)
Bad jokes? Huh?
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[User Picture]From: jemyl
2006-06-10 01:31 am (UTC)
You will do better if you schedule a couple of breaks in there for some fun. Maybe instead of a whole evening, just time for one fun movie, say 1.5 hours at the end of one of the practice tests? Sometimes it helps to get completely away for short breaks. Whenever I had to study for my insurance tests, I also found it was good to get a partner with whom to do the questions on the review tests orally. I seemed to get a double remembering whammy out of that. My late husband, Bill, and I or, before we hooked up, my mom or my daughter and I would spend at least a couple of hours with one of them quizing me by reading me the quesions. Having to get the right answer and sometimes explain it to them solidified it in my memory blanks and I always passed my tests on the first taking. Somehow it was less boring when shared with another too.

I know you will do well. I also wish I lived closeby instead of down here. I would volunteer to be your quizzer for one night a week. Peace, and chocolate too. ~~~Ellen
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 01:34 am (UTC)
I am working on scheduling a dinner out this weekend, since Ferrett is gone so there is no one to distract me. And I will keep working out. The oral drills will start soon.
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[User Picture]From: altaego
2006-06-10 03:09 am (UTC)
I think you have the right attitude. What you have to do is pretty clear, if you do it you'll pass.
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[User Picture]From: mauvedragon
2006-06-10 05:25 am (UTC)
*hugs* And as they say in show business, break a leg.
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[User Picture]From: happydog
2006-06-10 07:40 am (UTC)
it isn't, but it sure as hell feels like it. When I was studying for the NCE it felt like insanity, reviewing the same material over and over and over, and really in a sense waiting for That Exam while trying to do Everything Else.

Good thoughts/energies your way.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 01:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks. The understanding is much appreciated.
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[User Picture]From: merle_
2006-06-10 03:31 pm (UTC)
That seems to be true of most degrees. They place obstacles (thesis, defense, whatever) in the way to make sure you are one of the truly dedicated, in some effort to weed out the hoi-polloi who just kinda would like to have a degree.

Stick with it, and you'll be rewarded. I often wish I had finished a Master's in CS because of the greater potential job offers I could have had over the last.. well, many years. I did not, since it seemed boring and repetitive and I was not truly learning anything or stretching myself. So do stick with it.

But take a few hours off now and then. One has to in order to remain sane.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 04:17 pm (UTC)
I'm trying to make sure I get a workout daily, and am planning on dinner out with friends tonight or tomorrow. (Depends on the wife's schedule; she is finishing her doctoral thesis this summer - so we have a lot of commiseration and empathy going!)
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[User Picture]From: ithildae
2006-06-10 03:48 pm (UTC)
A retired attorney on Groklaw states that ALL attorney's are well above average. That IQ boost doesn't matter at all because of the curve of who you are competing against.

OTOH, the exam holds little fear for those who are prepared. It sounds like you are rapidly approaching that point. _quietude_ spent the day before her NCLEX (a much lighter exam than the Bar) playing with the kids and watching movies. She stomped it.

On the gripping hand, if you are starting to understand why things are done and where, that will make any practice you undertake much easier. The time spent now is getting you far ahead for when you start working!

Note: I use the term Attorney, rather than lawyer, for my friends because there are far fewer attorney jokes than lawyer jokes.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-10 04:20 pm (UTC)
It's all interrelated: having spent the last 5.5 years working in law firms, some of my practical knowledge is helping with a few of the topics.

And I *like* lawyer jokes!
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[User Picture]From: kalieris
2006-06-10 10:36 pm (UTC)
Are there any other law students you'd be able to get together with periodically to grill each other and throw information back and forth? Just to mix it up a little so you don't get so bored and isolated.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2006-06-11 02:03 am (UTC)
That's a good idea. I will have to work on it.
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