|T-minus 4 days and counting
||[Jul. 21st, 2006|12:53 pm]
I burst into Ferrett's office just a few minutes ago.
"Good news!" said I. "I've got my fear back!"
"Really?" said he. "How?"
I smiled. "I don't know jack-shit about Civil Procedure!"
He grinned back. "Excellent!"
Now, it's not really true that I know nothing about CivPro. I know enough to read through test questions and spot the issues. But I don't have it down enough to regurgitate all the rules at will. And that worries me.
This is a good thing.
You see, Tuesday and Wednesday I took a simulated test that was the length of about 3/4ths of the actual exam. And I did very well - about 72%, which is a very comfortable passing grade (60% = pass).
Despite giving myself a stern talking-to, all this success was pulling me into complacency. It's been a long, exhausting grind, and reviewing the same material time and again is getting freakin' boring, no matter how I slice it up. Intellectually, I understood that this is all "cram knowledge," surface knowledge, not deeply embedded and easily lost without review.
But damn. Concentration is hard to maintain when a little part of you keeps whining, "You know this! There are better things to do! Bored now!!!" Superego can hold out only so long against id without the fuel of adrenaline. Yesterday's "lunch with a friend" turned into "all afternoon off." Yesterday and today the 4:30 alarm was shut off in preference for the 7:30 alarm. And reviewing the answers I'd gotten wrong on the MBE was not triggering anything: okay, dumb reading mistake...ah, THAT'S how that's interpreted, got it now...gee THAT wasn't in the outline; it won't fool me again.... Nothing to make me concerned about any serious gaps in my knowledge of the multistate topics. Ho-hum, maybe I'll skim a couple outlines and then go clean the kitchen.
Then I hit the CivPro essay questions. Holy shit, do I have some work left to do.
Thank the Maker. I'm snapped back around now. Final cram mode. Let's roll.