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February Blues? [Feb. 4th, 2008|12:15 pm]
Zoethe
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I don't know if I'd call what I'm feeling "restless" or "hopeless," but everything seems sort of pointless just now. "Exercise, eat right, die anyway" sort of pointless.

Don't wanna work, don't even wanna play. Just, meh.

All these thoughts go through my head, mostly starting with, "I don't want" or "I'm tired of," but it's just useless whinging.

Will shut up and go away now.
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[User Picture]From: khiron1416
2008-02-04 05:34 pm (UTC)
that's the february blues.
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[User Picture]From: jfargo
2008-02-04 05:36 pm (UTC)
*hugs* It'll pass. You'll get back to being in the right place. Just don't let this stop you from being awesome, k?
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:18 pm (UTC)
Okay. Sometimes we just need to be three years old: I DON'T WANNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

I'm sure it will pass.
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[User Picture]From: jfargo
2008-02-04 06:20 pm (UTC)
I know. And I know we sometimes need to just whine.

But sometimes I just need to be a friend trying to console a friend. :-p
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:24 pm (UTC)
It's much appreciated. Thanks, hon.
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[User Picture]From: perseph12
2008-02-04 05:39 pm (UTC)
Whenever I feel the "February Blues" coming on, I like to re-read Clive Barker's The Thief of Always, a fabulous novel about what this dreary month drives a young boy to agree to. I think you would enjoy it, and it might just change your perspective. Or at least entertain you for an afternoon.

I really do hope you feel better. Take care of yourself, and don't feel like you need to go away. I like it when you keep the LJ posts comin'!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:19 pm (UTC)
Oh, thanks. Nothing interesting was going to come of anything I had to say at that point, so I was just going away for the moment.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:21 pm (UTC)

Re: I can relate.

I thought that cleaning up the kitchen and the sewing machine thing would help, but it didn't really.

I did just go put in 40 strenuous minutes on the NordicTrack, and that helped a little.
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[User Picture]From: hookncrook
2008-02-04 05:55 pm (UTC)
That sounds exactly like how my winter's blues sound in my head.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:22 pm (UTC)
Must be February....
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[User Picture]From: vrax
2008-02-04 06:17 pm (UTC)
But...but, um...you still wanna play on Thursday right? Right?
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:24 pm (UTC)
Alas, Ferrett's flight from Virginia does not get in until 10pm. Otherwise, playing would be the thing I would most wanna do.
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[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2008-02-04 06:35 pm (UTC)
Well, dunno if you put any stock in zodiac stuff, but Mercury is in Retrograde right now (until the 19th), and that tends to screw up everyone, regardless of what sign they are. At least that's my excuse for feeling generally blah (except for today, since I have a stomach bug/food poisoning/something making me puke).
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 06:43 pm (UTC)
I remain agnostic on the Mercury in retrograde thing. Seems like every time I turn around it's in retrograde again.
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[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2008-02-04 07:13 pm (UTC)
It doesn't seem that way to me, but maybe that's because one of the people on my f-list posts a "Get out of mercury retro free" card whenever it happens, and she's only posted it twice in the last six months. XD I wouldn't even know it was happening if it wasn't for her!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 08:13 pm (UTC)
It happens 3-4 times a year. It may have something to do with it, though. My communication stuff seems to all be firing on three cylinders.
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[User Picture]From: roaming
2008-02-04 07:05 pm (UTC)
oh, good (well, not good but). I thought it was just me, and feeling guilty about it is just making it worse. I'm spending my winter hibernation reading up on all the things I "should" be doing to be healthier and more energetic and not waste the dwindling years in front of me (more behind than in front). . . and all I can think of is "screw broccoli, where's the Entenmann's coffee cake?"
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 08:11 pm (UTC)
Part of it is going to the estate sale I mentioned the other day, part of it is bad health news about some people we know. It's all so temporary. So what if I live under a bridge, you know? I'm not making any real impact on the world.

(Ironically, I am feeling a bit better after working out and forcing myself to get stuff done, so don't think I'm putting together my hobo-chic outfit - I literally had to feel a bit better in order to even write that!)

I need to steal your Eyeore icon for days like this.
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[User Picture]From: roaming
2008-02-04 08:14 pm (UTC)
Steal away, share the "joy." Oddly, even when he's down, Eeyore makes me smile. I can just hear him saying "Life. Don't talk to me about life."
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 08:22 pm (UTC)
"Life. Don't talk to me about life."

That's *exactly* it!
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[User Picture]From: zzzzsleep
2008-02-04 11:00 pm (UTC)
"Here I am brain the size of a plant...."
"And I've got a pain in my stitching all down the left hand side..."
"The first million years in the hundred acre wood were the worst...."
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 11:04 pm (UTC)
*giggle*
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[User Picture]From: myshanter
2008-02-04 07:37 pm (UTC)
This is when my great-grandma made us drink dandelion tea. Apparently it made us perk up. At least, the threat of it did.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 08:16 pm (UTC)
LOL! Like acupuncture: if the needle doesn't help you, fear of it will.

Of course, it's not dandelion season....
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[User Picture]From: norda
2008-02-04 07:58 pm (UTC)
Some of it may be February blues, and some of it may be shifting air pressure.

I am snarly and morose myself.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 08:21 pm (UTC)
Hmm. Weather change. Might be a part of it. Thanks.

(Working out actually did help quite a bit.)
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[User Picture]From: bec76
2008-02-04 08:40 pm (UTC)
February in Cleveland is certainly not happy-fun-time. I feel ya on the whinyness.

"But I don't wannaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!"
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 08:43 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think the post holiday blues are setting in. Just not enough...anything. A workout picked me up a bit, though.
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[User Picture]From: sunfell
2008-02-04 08:59 pm (UTC)
It's JanuFeb. Even down here in the South, we get a touch of the blahs, and hopeful people fire up their barbeques as if the odor would run off the gloom.

It's 76° outside. You might want to be aware that this is headed your way- that means that there'll be tornadoes here in AR tomorrow.

Stoopid weather.

Vitamin D really does help: haven't had a bad case of the winter blahs, and I take one 400 milligram capsule of D3 twice a day.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 10:10 pm (UTC)
I'll have to try that. Thanks.

The weather is indeed weird.
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[User Picture]From: mycorethoughts
2008-02-04 10:36 pm (UTC)
*hug*

Winter doldrums. That's pretty much the same effect they have on me. Don't wanna do this, that, or any other thing, either.

Spring will be along soon enough. Meantime, try to enjoy the warmer weather we're supposed to have tomorrow! Daylight = sun, even if it's cloudy, which might do you a bit of good.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-04 11:03 pm (UTC)
Getting some exercise did help, as well as getting a few things done. I don't feel quite so useless.
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[User Picture]From: mommeeof9
2008-02-05 02:21 am (UTC)
I hate this time of year. One of the benefits of having a paying job is getting out of the house and to an office with lots of bright lights in it. I get paid to talk to grown ups on the phone.
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[User Picture]From: dweezel
2008-02-05 04:11 am (UTC)
I am SO feeling the same way. I don't really want to go to school anymore. I just want the degree so I can get the job I want. I never was good on the patience thing. And I should work out but I have absolutely no desire to do that. I'm having a hard enough time just getting out to walk the dog. One of these days when it's not 12 degrees I'll get up and do something. No, really.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-05 04:10 pm (UTC)
We had horrific rain last night and today it's 57 degrees and muggy. Still not exactly inviting weather.
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[User Picture]From: nuala
2008-02-05 12:54 pm (UTC)
Yup, a bit of exercise always seems to do the trick. If nothing else, it gets the blood flowing so that you can get on with the things you don't feel like doing. Failing that, exercise followed by a good book. This way, you don't feel guilty about lazing around in escapism. At least you've burned a few calories and CAN feel good about something. ;-)

I know you know, but I'll say it anyway. Hang in there, it will get better. xx
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-05 04:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks, sweetie.
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[User Picture]From: wolflady26
2008-02-05 11:44 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry, sweety. It sounds like it's definitely time for a break. Working for yourself can be really rough, and while it has fantastic ups, it also has severe downs.

You've been sick, you're tired, you're still trying to get in work, exercise, progress on hobbies... it's no wonder that you're feeling drained.

Treat yourself well, be good to yourself. Bubble baths, or a nap during the day, or curling up with a good book - do whatever it takes to recharge and re-energize. And I'll send you lots of warm, snuggly thoughts to complement your efforts :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-06 02:08 am (UTC)
Thanks. Today is a bit better.
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[User Picture]From: fitfool
2008-02-06 01:46 pm (UTC)
When I get in that mood, oftentimes a nap or a meal help me.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-02-06 05:19 pm (UTC)
If it had been just one day, yeah. This is sort of pervasive. Doing a bit better now, though.
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