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Memo [Aug. 20th, 2008|06:09 am]
Zoethe
[Current Mood |exhaustedinsomaniacal]

To: My body

From: Me

Look. I'm trying to play by the rules. Last week you made it clear that I was not getting enough sleep: the practically narcoleptic naps, the phase-out behind the wheel of the car. I got the hint; I've gone out of the way to get to bed early and really get some sleep.

So why is it that after the first couple days where I feel like I'm actually rested, you decide to go the insomnia route? What kind of sick joke is that, anyway? "Oh, hey, she's feeling human. We can't have that!"

I'm not sure what you want from me, but my requirements are simple, really: when I go to bed, please don't keep me awake with all the shenanigans. Oooo, I'm freezing cold; wait, now it's too warm; hey, have a little leg cramp; oh, and brain? That screaming earworm of bad music played at deafening levels? Great touch!

Can't I just be sleepy? Do I have to be exhausted?

No love,

Me
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[User Picture]From: andrewducker
2008-08-20 10:39 am (UTC)
Cramp, temperature variance and high sensitivity to my environment is usually an indication that my sugar levels are out of whack, I've got a low level infection, etc. If Julie's like that then it could also be because of hormonal issues.

All of these can also cause sleep problems too.

In any case, that sounds very sucky and I hope it clears up soon.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 02:20 pm (UTC)
Allergies meds and a couple Advil and I did manage to pass out, but then of course couldn't get up until now. Oofda.
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[User Picture]From: elf_fu
2008-08-20 11:19 am (UTC)
Do you go through cycles too? With spouts of going to bed at a normal time, getting up nice and normal--then weeks or months of insomnia, or at least, unable to hit the hay early?

This happens to me, been like this for years. At the moment, I am on my "being good, sleeping well," schedule. But a recent blip has made me all head-bang-on-keyboard. I hope yours straightens itself out soon!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 02:25 pm (UTC)
The one advantage to the insanity that was law school was that I was always fighting exhaustion so my insomnia disappeared.

Maybe next week when it's no longer out-of-town company and things keel back toward even it will get better again.
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[User Picture]From: moo58
2008-08-20 01:27 pm (UTC)
Are you certain we're not sharing the same brain? Because my brain does this to me also with the music. I especially like the 'full body jerk' just as I'm falling asleep which brings me back to full consciousness.

Stupid brain.
Stupid body.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 02:30 pm (UTC)
Oh, yeah, that's another favorite of mine. Worthy of screaming frustration.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2008-08-20 01:54 pm (UTC)
Had a physical checkup lately?? It might be good to see if there's underlying physical causes. My son, who has suffered a long time from sinuses, headaches, and difficulty sleeping, finally got medical coverage, went to the doctor, and found out he had super-high blood pressure. Since changing his diet and lowering his blood pressure, he is like a new person!!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 02:31 pm (UTC)
Yes, and my BP is very good. I've been like this all my life. Just didn't have an LJ to whine too before! ;-)
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2008-08-20 03:25 pm (UTC)
I whine a lot to my journal, too! LOL!

Beats whining to my patient hubby and kids!
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[User Picture]From: dana3
2008-08-20 02:35 pm (UTC)
Apparently it's somewhere in the weather/hormones/stress axis that determines whether or not you can sleep at all. I hate the "still up at 3, must waken at 5" kind of night, personally -- at least you ~can~ sleep in if you need to.

Sorry the night was bad, wishing you a better one tonight!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 02:54 pm (UTC)
Some days I can - other days there is court early.

I did better, sleepwise, when I was in school and disciplined to get up at 5am. I should probably go back to that more regular schedule.

But, duuuude.....

;-)
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[User Picture]From: roaming
2008-08-20 07:15 pm (UTC)
Doncha just love that hot/cold thang? Covers on/covers off/covers on/covers off -- all night. WElcome to menopause. Which technical can start in the late 30s, I read. Even earlier if one has pcos.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 10:15 pm (UTC)
At 50, I'm ready as all hell for it to be over with, but every month I am still regular as clockwork. I couldn't believe how cold my feet were last night.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-20 10:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks!
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[User Picture]From: wolflady26
2008-08-20 11:00 pm (UTC)
Wow, I've been doing the exact same thing this week. Totally exhausted all day, and then unable to sleep when I lie down. I'd like to blame it on the full moon, because that would indicate it'll go away soon.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-21 01:34 am (UTC)
That would be great if it weren't a lifelong sort of habit for me. Grr.
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[User Picture]From: uplinktruck
2008-08-22 12:08 am (UTC)
Does writing a memo to your body work? I've got to try that.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-08-22 01:55 am (UTC)
Yeah, not so much.
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