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Raster-burnout [Mar. 3rd, 2009|07:33 am]
Zoethe
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I realize that I am behind on LJ reading when my own husband has three entries up that I haven't seen.

I'm feeling sort of burned out on computers of late. Nothing personal, and no great "OMG, I'm deleting my journal!!!!" drama. Just tired.

So if I don't respond to stuff on my flist, don't take it personally - I'm not really reading anyone right now.

This will pass, as it always does. I still love all of you; it's just computers of which I've grown weary.
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[User Picture]From: jfargo
2009-03-03 12:43 pm (UTC)
*hugs* See you around whenever you're feeling up to it.
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[User Picture]From: apostate_96
2009-03-03 12:44 pm (UTC)
I can understand all too well. I've been going through a similar phase myself of late. Thanks for putting words to it, and reminding me that it'd be a good idea to explain that to my f-list, too.
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[User Picture]From: sunfell
2009-03-03 01:53 pm (UTC)
Sounds like you need a daffodil break. We got 'em down here!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-03 02:44 pm (UTC)
It's 14 degrees here. But at least the sun is shining.
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[User Picture]From: fallconsmate
2009-03-03 02:43 pm (UTC)
*hugs* winter will pass, and the sap will rise again.

thats how i generally put it...the sap is moving so slow i cant raise the energy to do most anything. like conquer Mt Laundry. :)

see you when you get het up about something again!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-03 03:09 pm (UTC)
I managed today [g].

I'm not necessarily not writing, just not reading. Which sounds crappy, but reading my flist takes a LOT more time!
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[User Picture]From: geekjul
2009-03-03 03:09 pm (UTC)
Mm, I can relate. Seems lately that the signal to noise ratio is all wrong. Take care of yourself :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-03 03:11 pm (UTC)
Thanks.
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[User Picture]From: norda
2009-03-03 04:21 pm (UTC)
I know the feeling, all too well.

Unfortunately, my livelihood means I'm chained to the damned computer.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-03 04:30 pm (UTC)
Yes, mine too. Which is why I need to disconnect some of my recreation from it.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-03 04:46 pm (UTC)
I actually got books read this weekend. It was awesome.
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[User Picture]From: tevriel
2009-03-04 01:15 am (UTC)
's cool.

I will say, though, I've been thinking of you a bit. Mostly because you wrote about having been diagnosed with ADD... and I've just been diagnosed with ADHD.

Specifically, you wrote:

Brain chemistry is weird-ass stuff. I want to be super-perfect Wonder Woman who is always in complete control without any assistance. But life doesn't work like that.

So I guess I'll be proud that I got as far in life as I did struggling against my brain chemistry and be grateful for the extra help.


I just want you to know, that's been really, really helpful for me, taking on being an adult with a fresh diagnosis of ADHD. Especially now, today - all the formalities having been completed, I should be getting a prescription for medication inside the next two hours, and I'm kind of terrified of what it'll be like. It's so deeply, desperately reassuring to read another adult's experience is fine, that it doesn't change who you are to do this.

So thank you. I'm going to try to be proud of what I have achieved so far, and look for the help.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-04 02:16 pm (UTC)
I'm glad it was helpful, and you should be proud of yourself. Remember if the first thing you try doesn't work, don't despair - some people have to try a couple different drugs to find something that matches their brain chemistry. Hugs.
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[User Picture]From: tevriel
2009-03-05 04:57 am (UTC)
Thanks. The reminder that this isn't the Only Option, it's fine if it doesn't work, helped me be a lot calmer this morning (given that I almost had a panic attack around when I took them, this was signifcant). So far it's looking good, as it turns out - I took them for the first time this morning, and I'm calm in a way I'm not sure I've ever felt before. I can think, I can read whole pages of things at a time.

It's amazing. Who knew dexamphetamines were what was really missing from my life?
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-03-05 02:04 pm (UTC)
It's a pretty amazing feeling.

Keep in mind, too, that body chemistry varies. I will be fine on mine for a while, then suddenly have flipout days. I've learned that not taking them for a couple days will generally get me past that. I gotta figure that it's hormonal or something, but haven't paid enough attention to discover a pattern - being premenopausal is already messing with my hormones enough that patterns would be hard to discern.
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