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Moot court and stage fright [May. 28th, 2003|06:48 am]
Zoethe
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Got up this morning to prep for the coming tryouts this evening. Last night's practice was kind of a disaster. I got really nervous and couldn't remember anything, got going, but then couldn't keep up the rhythm. Shaky voice, shaky hands.

I am not an accomplished public speaker. :-/

This fact has always been an irritant to me. I couldn't get up in front of the local quilting group and make a presentation without feeling half sick. Even leading the girl scout troup always had me feeling nervous.

Now, I'm fine when given a script. Back when I was a practicing Catholic and served as a lector at Mass, people regularly came up to me afterwards and complimented me on my accomplished reading. So if I could just read my little talk, I would be fine.

But that isn't the point of Moot Court. It's designed to hone litigation skills, flexibility, confidence.

All that stuff I don't have when I have to stand up and speak from behind the podium.

People who know me find this hard to believe. I'm sure my classmates would find it hard to believe - I am always ready to offer comment in class, after all.

That's not the same as having all eyes trained upon you while you work your way through an argument.

It's something I would rather run away from. I almost didn't go last night, and if I could get away with talking myself out of it today, I would. I won't, though, because even though I will probably blow this, it's a good experience and a skill I need to learn.

But, man, do I hate it.
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From: (Anonymous)
2003-05-28 05:52 am (UTC)

Litigation

I have two uncles who are lawyers. One is a litigator, the other is not. It is good to learn what type of lawyer you would like to be.
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[User Picture]From: law_witch
2003-05-28 10:56 am (UTC)
ditto the above post - not all law is in court (shocking).

The backbone is research and that doesn't require public speaking.

Just a thought, is there any kind of "calm down" thing you could take before hand so you're not so nervous??
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2003-05-28 07:48 pm (UTC)
Oh, believe me I know that most law is transactional - I was married to an environmental attorney for 17 years and he rarely went to court.

But on occasion he did. And being able to deal with that possibility is important.

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