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Belief [Nov. 6th, 2009|11:02 am]
Zoethe
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We went out and walked in that wind last night. It is in nights like that, and in gazing up at the moon, and in the surge of storms, that I feel that sense of magic. Holding out my arms, eyes closed, that rush of wind feels like it runs through me and I am part of it.

And that, to me, is the wellspring of much of my belief. I believe that magic is our attuning with the world. My beliefs are as much related to quantum mechanics as they are to faith, because we keep learning, through science, things like observation changing the result of experimentation.

I believe that the forces of the universe that are beyond both macrocosmic and microcosmic can be accessed, and the way the human mind does so is by a sense of deity. Essentially, I think humans create godhood and, like the changes through observation, belief becomes a focus for the universal forces. I think of the forces in general as goddess/creator because it's an effective way for me to relate to them. I think the sheer power of belief can swirl some of that force into something more manifest, but it's like standing in Lake Erie and swirling your arm around to create a tiny whirlpool: you've affected the water right in front of you and made it do what you want, but the rest of the lake is too large for that effect to impact. And as soon as you stop concentrating that energy on the water before you it slips quickly back into common form of lake.

Some people go through life completely ignoring the force of the universe. Some people think of it as Capital G God and react to it passively in the form of praying to that force. It can impact the energy just like observation can impact an experiment, but the attitude is generally that the force is external.

Witches reach into the water and swirl those whirlpools up. Shaping deity from the force of the universe is creating a vortex in that water. Doing magic is reaching into that power.

Sometimes I can't focus the energy to manipulate it. But when I do, there is a moment when I can hear the pulse of the universe.

Sometimes, like last night, I don't have to manipulate it. I can just let it wash over me. That is blessing.
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[User Picture]From: bec76
2009-11-06 04:22 pm (UTC)
*loves*
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[User Picture]From: tormentedartist
2009-11-06 04:23 pm (UTC)
That was pretty interesting because you never really talk ( write) about this sort of stuff. Honestly, I've never really thought of affecting the universe this way. Its always seemed kinda new agey to me. But you seem to be very different than the new age stereotypes and that makes me take you a bit more seriously.

Thanks for posting something different this morning : )
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 05:14 pm (UTC)
I'm also pragmatic enough to know that it might all just be emotional, made up bullshit in my head. I think that prevents me from falling too far into the new age stereotype!
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-11-06 04:25 pm (UTC)
Beautiful.

You have just summed up what I too believe. It's nice to hear someone else say it.

Thank you.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 05:14 pm (UTC)
I'm glad it spoke to you.
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[User Picture]From: dana3
2009-11-06 04:26 pm (UTC)
::nodnodnodnodnod:: I love those times! We spend so much time/energy directing those forces that the times when we can just melt into them and receive the blessings are so beautiful. Thanks for writing this!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 06:13 pm (UTC)
As I explained about the weather witching I did for Sunday's wedding, the secret is learning to use the flow rather than fight it.
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[User Picture]From: custardfairy
2009-11-06 04:47 pm (UTC)
Oh, this, so much this, and you've said it perfectly. I wish I had something just as eloquent to reply.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 05:22 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 05:23 pm (UTC)
That's really cool!
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[User Picture]From: blessed_oak
2009-11-06 04:51 pm (UTC)
That is lovely.

I personally do the "capital G God" in my own way, because I would like for us to love each other. But this One is not external, and nothing else that you've said is incompatible with my own feelings. (And I have an old B.S. in physics myself, that I only use for things like this. Heh.)

Thank you for sharing.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 05:26 pm (UTC)
I firmly believe we all worship the same godhead, it's just how we relate to it that's different. Acceptance of that would make life much more peaceful!
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[User Picture]From: s00j
2009-11-06 05:18 pm (UTC)
it's all about the water. :)
<3
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-06 06:07 pm (UTC)
Interestingly, I am about as Earth as a person can be, and yet water is so much better a metaphor for this.
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[User Picture]From: geli_tripping
2009-11-06 10:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks for sharing this! Spoke to me on a few levels.
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[User Picture]From: icefacade
2009-11-07 01:59 am (UTC)
This is beautiful,
exactly right,
and just so.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-07 06:15 am (UTC)
Thank you. I'm glad it spoke to you.
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[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2009-11-07 02:56 am (UTC)
I often say that I would be an atheist but for how I feel when I'm performing. I can understand then why so much beautiful music was composed for the church, because at the height of a performance there's no better word for it than divine. Doesn't matter if that divinity is categorized or not (I don't have any religion right now, just a "sense"), but recognizing it when you see or feel it is important. I don't always manage in life (although the effect the sea has on me is pretty damn obvious), but on stage it's as easy as breathing.

Part of me wishes my first introductions to Wicca weren't self-obsessed young women who practiced it about as much as I like to practice piano (i.e. almost not at all), because they put a very bad taste in my mouth. Perhaps later in life I'll get a chance to explore these energies more fully.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-11-07 06:18 am (UTC)
I struggled for a long time to find pagans who didn't completely creep me out. It's a challenge.

And yes, divine music is amazing. I still love it, even if it's talking about a vision of deity that is not my vision.
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-11-07 12:59 pm (UTC)
白いバラや白いお花とシャンパンピーチカラー、ゴールドのアクセント。
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[User Picture]From: gafizal
2009-11-08 04:24 pm (UTC)

i also like big wind

though i feel like witnessing starts is more the thing than the moon for me...
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