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I'll just stop being sick and be awesome [Dec. 28th, 2009|11:58 am]
Zoethe
2009 is finally creeping out the door, a year that I'm glad to show out. I'm holding my breath, waiting for its last sting - I'll not make Gandalf's mistake and turn my back on the treacherous beast before it's completely out of range. But even while holding a defensive posture against the end of 2009, I find myself contemplating 2010.

I just read that the average lifespan of a US citizen has reached 78. That number resonated with me. You see, I will turn 52 this year. 78 divided by 3 is 26 - half of 52. I am therefore on the threshold of the final third of my life. Now, I could approach this with anxiety about death. But instead I am embracing this as the payoff for the years I've invested in becoming myself. Now it's about payoff. I am stepping into the third act of my life with bravado and glee. Like Auntie Mame said, "Life's a banquet and most poor suckers are starving to death."

Ive spent far too much time focusing on the tough things in life. My life is filled with grace and wonder, and I'm goinng to embrace that.

So 2010 is going to be My Year of Living Graciously. To me, gracious living is not about some kind of Martha Stewart perfection. It's about embracing the grace in day-to-day living. It's about appreciating my friends and loved ones. It's about making good decisions for the use of my time. It's about beauty and art and respecting and appreciating the senses. This is less Martha Stewart and more Anthony Bourdain. Less Julie and Julia and more Siddhartha.

I will fail some days. I'll get sick or tired or miserable for one reason or other. That's okay. I will record the failures as well as the successes. At the end of the year, I'm hopeful that I will have some fascinating insights on life.

I have started a WordPress journal specifically for this project, http://livinggraciously.wordpress.com/. I will be putting my entries here as well, but quotations or links of interest will be there.

My only New Year's Resolution? Learn to juggle. The rest of it is simply living better.
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[User Picture]From: dhimahi
2009-12-28 05:07 pm (UTC)

beautifully said

May I quote you, with or without credit?

"2010 is going to be My Year of Living Graciously. To me, gracious living is not about some kind of Martha Stewart perfection. It's about embracing the grace in day-to-day living. It's about appreciating my friends and loved ones. It's about making good decisions for the use of my time. It's about beauty and art and respecting and appreciating the senses. This is less Martha Stewart and more Anthony Bourdain. Less Julie and Julia and more Siddhartha.

I will fail some days. I'll get sick or tired or miserable for one reason or other. That's okay. I will record the failures as well as the successes. At the end of the year, I'm hopeful that I will have some fascinating insights on life.

My only New Year's Resolution? Learn to juggle. The rest of it is simply living better."
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-28 05:09 pm (UTC)

Re: beautifully said

Yes, with credit, dear.
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[User Picture]From: theferrett
2009-12-28 05:19 pm (UTC)
RSS feed available through LJ at living_gracious.
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[User Picture]From: dhimahi
2009-12-28 05:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you ferrett!
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-12-28 05:37 pm (UTC)
でぶでいんぽでおお嘘つきで、うつ病で、あたまがおかしくて、
私の心と人生をもてあそんだことをみんなに公表してやる。
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-12-28 05:42 pm (UTC)
いますぐ東京に謝罪にくる準備をしろ。
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[User Picture]From: forestmaster
2009-12-28 05:45 pm (UTC)

average

just read that the average lifespan of a US citizen has reached 78. That number resonated with me. You see, I will turn 52 this year. 78 divided by 3 is 26 - half of 52. I am therefore on the threshold of the final third of my life.

Gini, you are an above average awesome individual. What if you planned to live to be 104 instead of looking at things coming to their conclusion in the next 26 years? Then you'd only be entering your third quarter of life with at least another quarter of bravado and glee awaiting you after you reached the average age of 78?!

It's good to reach a point in life, at whatever age, to embrace and enjoy the self that you have worked hard to become. Live long and prosper... gracefully, gleefully, and well.

I apparently said something wise in another friend's journal a while back - there's just so much to learn/do/explore and we all get only 24 hours in a day and an unknown number of them

... so please don't concern yourself with what other average people are doing... keep being awesome instead :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-28 05:56 pm (UTC)

Re: average

If I was going to live to 105, I would still be in the second, waning half. So I would still embrace life in the same way. I am not aiming at dying when I'm 78, if just gave me an interesting perspective.

I intend to be increasingly awesome over the coming years!
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[User Picture]From: cubes
2009-12-28 06:00 pm (UTC)
Bravo.

The years seem to stream by faster and faster the older I get. I am profoundly grateful that I have also been given the gifts of serenity, appreciation, and joy with which to savor however many I have left.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-28 06:12 pm (UTC)
They are great gifts. Living consciously is a lovely thing to do.
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-12-28 06:06 pm (UTC)
東京に謝罪に来い。
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-12-28 06:07 pm (UTC)
このYear endに謝罪に来るように。
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[User Picture]From: k425
2009-12-28 07:20 pm (UTC)
Juggling for the complete klutz is wonderful. It made me laugh and took me from, well, klutz to juggler, over the course of a weekend.
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[User Picture]From: labelleizzy
2009-12-28 10:36 pm (UTC)
a friend who knows how to juggle just gave me this tip: when you are learning, you know how you tend to over-toss, and then you have to run forward after the balls?

KathyEllen said, practice standing in front of a blank wall, bounce the balls/bags/whatever off the wall so you don't have to chase them, then you can practice on learning control instead of on chasing the balls/bags/whatever.

That said, however, I'm adding that book to my amazon wish list!
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[User Picture]From: trianakvetch
2009-12-28 07:33 pm (UTC)
I'll just stop being sick and be awesome

Honey, you have always been awesome :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-29 12:57 am (UTC)
Aww, thanks.
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[User Picture]From: phillipalden
2009-12-28 09:11 pm (UTC)
What a wonderful idea! I look forward to reading it.

And I hope we all have a better 2010 than our 2009.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-29 12:58 am (UTC)
I'm hoping it will be a good year.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2009-12-29 12:55 am (UTC)
My grandmother reached 94, so I'm aiming for that! Thirty more years of loving my family and enjoying people who come into my life, whether in LJ, my work, church or just in the supermarket! I hope to keep reading your journal entries that long!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-29 12:57 am (UTC)
My aim is for this to be the beginning of the second half of my life. And making my life awesome is part of that goal!
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[User Picture]From: danodea
2009-12-29 04:40 am (UTC)
To me, gracious living is not about some kind of Martha Stewart perfection.

Oh good.
If you felt it was related to Martha Stewart, then I would seriously have to consider some form of bodily harm.

;P


Good For you.

Males in my family live to about 72-82, so I'm at about the same point.

Good Luck in your Quest! ;)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2009-12-29 01:45 pm (UTC)
Thanks!
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-12-29 05:49 am (UTC)
謝罪のメールと、賠償金の銀行振り込みでもいいと思う。でも、あなたは、私に直接会って、謝罪したいのですか?
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-12-29 11:34 am (UTC)
帝国ホテル
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