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Girly bits [Aug. 9th, 2010|07:30 am]
Zoethe


First glance at the bathroom floor, and you would not have been foolish to jump to the conclusion that my liver had evacuated my body.

I am 52 years old. I keep trying to send a memo to my uterus: I don't know why you are so ambitious, but there is NO WAY you are ever going to be occupied again. You can stop trying so hard. But my body does not listen to these pleas of mine.

I am SO done with this.
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[User Picture]From: itches
2010-08-09 11:39 am (UTC)
'*I* don't want to know, even though I feel compelled to write about it.'

That's why you keep your eyes shut while typing.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 11:54 am (UTC)
Good idea.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2010-08-09 11:48 am (UTC)
My sympathies. Do you know when your Mom went through the change? That's usually an indicator. Although better health and nutrition means it could be later.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 11:55 am (UTC)
51 or 52, according to her. Bleah.
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[User Picture]From: aiela
2010-08-09 11:58 am (UTC)
*hugs* I'm sorry you're going through this. Feel better, sweetie.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 12:31 pm (UTC)
Thanks, darlin'.
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[User Picture]From: halfmoon_mollie
2010-08-09 12:03 pm (UTC)
oh, yuck.

I'm sorry this is happening to you. Feel better.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 12:31 pm (UTC)
Thanks.
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[User Picture]From: kibbles
2010-08-09 12:12 pm (UTC)
Ugh, I'm done and I'm in my 40s. ENOUGH ALREADY.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 12:33 pm (UTC)
Seriously, right??
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[User Picture]From: nex0s
2010-08-09 12:43 pm (UTC)
See, I got a Mirena iud - light spotting FTW! And I don't have to remember to take anything. Freedom!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 12:55 pm (UTC)
At my age I keep thinking it should stop any time now....
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[User Picture]From: xhollydayx
2010-08-09 12:56 pm (UTC)
Actually, I'm going to thank you for posting this. I was debating going off the meds that shut down my uterus and ovaries. And this reminded me that maybe, JUST MAYBE that may not be the best idea that I've ever had. My mom has been "perimenopausal" (I disagree with this doctor) for oh, five years now? They put her on birth control to try to make her periods less crazy. My mom is on actual birth control and I'm not. Let's ponder that. But yeah, her period has never been this heavy or erratic. Any chance something like that is an option for you?

Regardless, *hugs*. That still fucking sucks. Your uterus just needs to quit already. Dude, you had a good run. It's time to retire.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 01:02 pm (UTC)
I'm not erratic. I'm dead-on at the same 27 days I have been since I was a teenager. I just have the occasional WTFingF??!! clot. As such, I'm not really a candidate for birth control because I'm normal, just persistent.

It's definitely time for it to retire. Thanks.
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[User Picture]From: sapphirescarlet
2010-08-09 01:04 pm (UTC)
Wow. Although I still have "sort of" periods (they're uber-light and brief) I am really glad I had the ablation done. Otherwise I might be into my 50's before I quit. I'd recommend it if you're at all inclined or eligible. Get it OUTTA there.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 01:09 pm (UTC)
I'm thinking I'll give it 6 more months to see if anything starts actually changing. My periods are only a few days long, and throwing clots like this is fairly rare, but I'm just weary of the whole thing!
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[User Picture]From: heathrow
2010-08-09 01:16 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry, darling! I hope it eases up soon.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 02:34 pm (UTC)
It appears to be the usual once-in-a-blue-moon surprise and things are normalizing.

What I want isn't "normal." What I want is "change." As in "The Change."

;-)
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[User Picture]From: roadnotes
2010-08-09 01:54 pm (UTC)
Ayup. I now know that feeling, and it's, well, not fun. I've been describing as it, "I have provided the special effects for the whole CSI franchise for this week, and it's tiresome."
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 02:34 pm (UTC)
LOL - so true.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2010-08-09 02:02 pm (UTC)
I'm right there with you. :(
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 02:35 pm (UTC)
Misery loves company, eh?
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[User Picture]From: horizonchaser
2010-08-09 02:44 pm (UTC)
Euuwwww! *hugs* I've read that throwing clots more than usual is an indication of it coming to an end, but it's always different with different people.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 02:50 pm (UTC)
I've done this off and on for YEARS - my first popular LJ entry was titled "Here There be Blood." It's not every month, but now and then I'm shocked by the things.
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[User Picture]From: walkertxkitty
2010-08-09 02:59 pm (UTC)
I'm only thirty-nine and done with it. My cycles had stopped owing to disease process but because of the conservativeness of Florida, I can't get a hysterectomy. So they tried a birth control pill...which replaced the hormone I'd been missing and now I'm suddenly fertile --- at thirty-nine, with no desire whatsoever to pass my broken DNA on to some poor unsuspecting fetus.

My current cycles could best be termed "who slaughtered a horse in my vagina?"

I wish it would either enter menopause quietly or they would allow the removal of said apparatus. Trust me, I'm not using it.

My sympathies, in other words.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 03:29 pm (UTC)
How very stupid and awful. It used to be that they gave out hysterectomies like 40th birthday presents. Somewhere there is a sane middle ground.
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[User Picture]From: lawchicky
2010-08-09 03:00 pm (UTC)
My mom is 51 this year and has the same issue. Of course she also has a seven year old, partially because she thought that phase in her life was showing up back then! So I know I'm in for the long haul here. I come from much-too-fertile stock.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 03:30 pm (UTC)
Oh, I have not taken chances, believe me. No late-life surprises, thank you.
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[User Picture]From: teaa
2010-08-09 03:29 pm (UTC)
I used the awesome phrase last month, "I'm gushing more than a BP oil spill!" My husband was not amused.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 03:31 pm (UTC)
That's awesomely horrible!!!
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[User Picture]From: zeldakitty
2010-08-09 06:24 pm (UTC)
45 years old. Got off the pill ten years ago. Period has been mostly dependable but man, so heavy. So much blood. So many concurrent products have to be used at one time. Got back on the pill a week ago. Oh well.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 07:41 pm (UTC)
Every time I buy a large economy size bag of pads or box of tampons, I pray that I will have wasted my money.

So far, not the case.
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[User Picture]From: starwatcher307
2010-08-09 07:26 pm (UTC)
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I always thought women had a design flaw. We should have a sphincter muscle, like for the bladder; be able to hold it in until we go to the bathroom, and void both at once. No more fear of "overflowing" while sleeping or other inconvenient times... it would be magical.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 07:43 pm (UTC)
That would be pretty damned awesome.
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[User Picture]From: oceansedge
2010-08-09 08:34 pm (UTC)
and why the hell does the end have to be worse than the beginning?? everything I've read, everything I've been told, it's being peri-menopausal that's been making it heavier - I mean really what the hell is up with that?

I'm not much for losing whole body organs unnecessarily - but do you think they could come up with a less drastic option that they could oh maybe implement at the time I had my tubes tied???
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-09 09:57 pm (UTC)
I'm hesitant about voluntarily messing with my organs, and thereby hormones, more than necessary. So for now I'll just stick with bitching about it.
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[User Picture]From: cosmicbandit
2010-08-10 04:13 am (UTC)
Mine got considerable heavier when I had my second child at 30. Forty-one now and beyond sick of the gushing and everything below the waist cramping. I remove the rug next to the toilet when it's that time. Problem is spotting 2 days, deluge for the next 2-3 days and then spotting for another 2-4 days. I get the, you thought you were done, surprise. I totally sympathise.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-10 12:17 pm (UTC)
I guess I shouldn't complain since mine is generally only 4-5 days, start to finish.
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[User Picture]From: jenni_the_odd
2010-08-10 04:56 am (UTC)
I feel your pain. A few days ago I delivered (given the level of pain, I feel okay comparing it to labor) a clot about the size of a tennis ball. Ovaries are right bastards.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-10 12:18 pm (UTC)
It's so much fun, and I completely agree with your comparison. I spent the day referring to it as giving birth to my own liver.
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[User Picture]From: libco
2010-08-10 03:43 pm (UTC)
I always think I was secretly impregnated by aliens and this is a miscarriage because my body can't handle the alien/human hybrid.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-10 04:33 pm (UTC)
That cracks me up!
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[User Picture]From: pachamama
2010-08-16 03:34 pm (UTC)
Have you considered a Mirena IUD? It secretes a very very very small amount of hormone locally which seems to impede the development of endometrium, leading to much lighter bleeding and sometimes none at all. It's also a nice form of birth control (my second favourite after vasectomy).
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-08-16 04:47 pm (UTC)
At 52, I'm optimistic about stopping instead. Of course, I've been optimistic for a couple years now....
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