|I am a gelatinous cube; phear me
||[Sep. 28th, 2010|05:21 pm]
I know it's very foolish and childish, because after all I am in my own house and managing to do the things that must be done, but I feel disturbingly untethered. And everything takes SUCH an effort to even decide to attempt, let alone accomplish.|
Hormones and cramping are not making this any easier, I'm sure.
*hugs* Your home is in chaos! Give yourself a break, and in a few days it will look easier.
Thanks. I'm always better in the morning after a night of sleep, but the days wear on me.
I recommend admiring the fancy color in your bedroom. :) I live in perpetual chaos (I have two small children and a husband, and I have never been part of a feature story on the 6 o'clock news; I'm doing amazingly well :D), and I find it helps to have one corner where I can go and re-tether myself to reality. My corner is surrounded by chaos that routinely threatens to crush my toes, but it's there, I can see it, and sometimes just looking at it is enough to help. :)
(It's only childish if you whine about it. Complaining, that's motherish. ;D)
Sleep is definitely a salvation. Mornings are better, and the worst of the chaos will be over by tomorrow night. I just have to remind myself of that.
The state of one's abode can definitely have a profound effect on one's mood. I'm horrible about keeping my place picked up and neat, at least on a consistent basis. However, I notice that once I do straighten my home up, it does has a positive effect on my mood. On a recent episode of Hoarders, there was this woman who had some elementary-school-age daughters who were having horrible times with anxiety and depression, apparently from the stress of living in a home that had no order to it because of the hoarding.
Man. I could use a dose of that.
Considering that my basement currently looks like an episode of Hoarders, I understand the depression.
My sympathies. My husband and I had to live in one half of our detached two car garage while our stuff lived in the other half for a full summer while our house was "renovated" (demolished and rebuilt). It sucks, but you will get through it. Just focus on how nice things will be when you're done! And it will be the perfect chance to satisfy your "Get rid of it or find a place for it" drive - since everything is out of place anyway, you can just move the stuff back into any given room that you actually love, and figure out what of the remainder can be gotten rid of!
I am trying to focus on the "moving back in." I think it's going to be awesome.
So you're one of these?
Also, it looks like I'm the first to comment on the D&D reference. All the rest of you geeks are slacking.
Yes. Everywhere I go, I appear to gather up more crap. And I am brainless.
Though a bit better after a night's sleep.