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Checking in [Jun. 25th, 2011|12:57 pm]
Zoethe
It's been a week and change, so I just wanted to stop by quickly and let people know that I'm doing a bit better. That last check-in was the worst day I've ever had that didn't involve an external crisis, and I still have some days when I'm struggling a bit, but it's been better. I've started working out some, and getting some sewing done. I'm making myself move forward at times when I really don't feel like it. I'm trying to remember to take the care of myself that I would take of a friend.

Thank you all for being there for me. I feel lofted up by your caring and concern.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2011-06-25 05:00 pm (UTC)
Glad you're seeing improvement! Keep up the good work!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 04:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
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[User Picture]From: scarfman
2011-06-25 05:15 pm (UTC)

And remember, it's your birthday.

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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-25 10:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I went out with a friend this afternoon and had a very birthday sort of day.
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[User Picture]From: megito
2011-06-25 06:28 pm (UTC)
I know exactly how you feel. You're where I was a couple years back. It's difficult to deal with when you're sad or upset but there's nothing logical that is making you feel that way. Working out certainly helps a lot. Even if it's just a small bit each day, it makes a difference. Taking time to do things that you enjoy and spending time with people who make you laugh also help.

It's a difficult journey but as time passes, you'll learn what coping mechanisms work for you. In time, the good days will start to outnumber the bad.

*hugs*
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-25 10:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks. The weird is that the sad hits at the damnedest times - frequently right after something that has made me happy. It's like my brain is being perverse.
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[User Picture]From: alumiere
2011-06-25 09:08 pm (UTC)
I'm glad things are better, and thank you for "I'm trying to remember to take the care of myself that I would take of a friend" - it's something I need to work on.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-25 10:21 pm (UTC)
It's HARD! We are so tough on ourselves. Some of it's needed--otherwise we'd be nothing but id running wild and burning things down. But the balance is tough.
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[User Picture]From: aiela
2011-06-25 09:29 pm (UTC)
*hugs* to you. I hope things continue to move in the right direction. Miss you and love you!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-25 10:22 pm (UTC)
Love you, too! Hugs! I wish we all lived closer.
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[User Picture]From: fallconsmate
2011-06-25 10:34 pm (UTC)
I am glad for you! *hugs* and yes, taking care of yourself is very good. :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 04:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much.
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[User Picture]From: roaming
2011-06-25 11:11 pm (UTC)
Zoloft helped me (as I've said before). Without it I feel irritable, cranky, and slightly anxious, even though life is relatively GREAT for me. When I get those feelings, I try to tell myself "It's not REAL, it's just chemicals frakking with my brain." That helps me a bit so I don't buy into what the voices in my head are telling me about how sucky things are and are going to be. It's so easy to get sucked into stewing in our own juices. Especially for thoe of us who tend to overthink things. (God I envy my husband. I sometimes tell him what I'm thinking, and it's like that scene from Harry Potter where Hermione talks about how girls are thinking and Ron is astonished, says something like "Nobody could have all those feelings at once, they'd explode!" Well, yeh. Welcome to our hormoned world. Only marginally better than Testosterone Poisoning.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 12:02 am (UTC)
You made me laugh! And all while being right!!
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[User Picture]From: dana3
2011-06-25 11:38 pm (UTC)
It's a birthday being?? Hippo happy bird-day!!

Glad you checked in. Keep on keeping on! Here's an icon for some humor. ;D
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 12:06 am (UTC)
Not really my birthday, just the "act as if it's your birthday" thing. But thank you!

And love the icon.
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[User Picture]From: mplsindygirl
2011-06-26 12:00 am (UTC)
Bravo! Small steps count for a hell of a lot, and you're taking plenty of them.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 12:06 am (UTC)
Thanks!
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[User Picture]From: shandra
2011-06-26 01:38 am (UTC)
Thanks for sharing your continued journey - and I love that you are working to remember to care for yourself as you would a friend; that's huge and a really nice way to put it.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 06:03 am (UTC)
Thanks. Spent a lovely day with friends, and it reminds me of the way to treat myself.
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From: anonymousalex
2011-06-26 05:07 am (UTC)
Thank you for checking in. It's good to hear that you're making progress.

I read a book some years ago about losing weight that took the position that you should always think in terms of hitting your target weight a year from now. That way you don't get all discouraged by the (normal and expected) slowness and setbacks along the way. Getting past (acute) depression is kind of like that; sometimes it seems to take forever, and sometimes there are setbacks, but in the long run you're moving in the right direction.

And next year? Watch out.

-Alex
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 06:06 am (UTC)
That's a really good way of looking at it. Thanks.
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[User Picture]From: dandelion_diva
2011-06-26 10:47 am (UTC)
I'm glad you're doing better. :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 04:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks!
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[User Picture]From: call_me_harmony
2011-06-26 01:50 pm (UTC)
"I'm trying to remember to take the care of myself that I would take of a friend." that's an important one. It's also the one I use when I'm setting my expectations for myself too high "would I ask that of a friend" and if the answer is no then why the hell demand it from myself.

I'm glad things are starting to improve for you.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 04:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hon.
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[User Picture]From: geli_tripping
2011-06-26 03:09 pm (UTC)
Glad that you are starting to feel better. *Hugs*
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 04:43 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
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[User Picture]From: irishgalinabq
2011-06-26 03:32 pm (UTC)
Glad you are improving. Keep working!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-06-26 04:44 pm (UTC)
I'm sure gonna keep trying. Thanks.
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