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Changing my life, challenging myself [May. 22nd, 2012|09:26 am]
Zoethe
When I first started this my Living Graciously blog in December of 2009, the focus was going to be on changing my life and my body far more than on things like cooking. I abandoned the blog as I abandoned that project, and it sat idle for a very long time. As did I.

I got back into blogging there about the same time that I started working out and eating in a more healthful manner, but I decided then that I didn't want to let this become a place where I obsessed about my exercise and fitness, so I've avoided those topics for a couple reasons. First of all, I've been down the "shaping up" path before and eventually lost the battle, and that's a boring thing to write about. Secondly, because I think there is too much emphasis on having the perfect body and I don't endorse the kind of crazy behaviors that such an emphasis tends to encourage.

But I can't escape that these changes have become a part of me, particularly when I am doing something like training for Pedal to the Point. It's been such a focus for me that it's kind of shut down my blog writing, because I didn't feel like I could write honestly while avoiding those topics.

So I'm outing myself. I confess that I exercise regularly these days, and that it has helped me to get in better shape. I also continue to eat rich, tasty foods, eschew all forms of "lite" foods, use butter, eggs, and sour cream, eat meat, and have still lost weight. I will probably be writing a lot more about that part of my journey going forward.

In the meantime, training for Pedal to the Point continues. Yesterday I rode 41 miles. You go a long way in 41 miles! The ride out is the worst, really: every turn of the pedal takes you further from home. When we got to the 10-mile mark--a usually turnaround spot for me, part of my mind really thought we were halfway there. But no, instead of heading downhill on the bike trail, I turned upstream. The second 10 miles started okay, but halfway through that I was flagging a bit. By the time I reached twenty, I was only pedaling about 10 miles an hour and thinking, "Man, this is going to be a LONG ride home."

Then I found myself racing along at 16mph. Turns out I'd been going uphill all this time! That was a welcome relief. In all, it took me three and a half hours to bike the distance.

I'm not biking today. I think I've earned a day off. But I'm still looking for more donations for that lighter, faster bike! Please consider sponsoring me for Pedal to the Point during this week when the bike prize is available. Thanks!

Crossposting from Dreamwidth now. Sigh. If LJ won't let you comment, you can comment here: http://zoethe.dreamwidth.org/794332.html?mode=reply:
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[User Picture]From: shezan
2012-05-22 01:41 pm (UTC)
Wait, you were cheating on us WITH ANOTHER BLOG???

And BRAVA for the 41 miles!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-22 04:32 pm (UTC)
I've been poly-blogerous for a long time, but I do post the entries here as well. ;-)

and thanks!
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[User Picture]From: sammiantha
2012-05-22 02:34 pm (UTC)
I've discovered in training for running that there is nothing more likely to put me off than an out-and-back route. I would recommend that wherever possible you plan a circular route - much less of that 'every inch I travel now I have to do again on the way back....' feeling, and you also get to see more variety in your surroundings.

If it isn't possible to get a fully circular route then even making part of it a loop can help.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-22 04:33 pm (UTC)
I am fortunate enough to live near an amazing bike path, but I tend to ride out along streets and drop to the path for the ride back. Because I prefer loops, too.
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[User Picture]From: noevilliveon
2012-05-22 02:35 pm (UTC)
I rode the BP MS150 (Houston, Tx to Austin, Tx), which is typically the largest Bike MS event, for 4 years in my teens. It was an amazing experience, shared with many classmates and my family.

I didn't get to finish the first time (something about a spectacular crash while going 45 mph downhill, leading to multiple broken bones, kills your ability to complete a ride).

I miss biking so much, even if it is an exercise in torture here in 110 degree, 100% humidity Houston. I miss being fit and healthy, and I miss being involved in Bike MS.

I know I already said this to you, but, you're inspiring me to try again, after 8 years of hardly riding (and 100lbs of extra fat... See what happens when you blow your joints and stop exercising?). I'll have to take it slow to avoid winding up in physical therapy yet again, but I'm going to try. I sent my old-but-still-high-end hybrid in to get a complete dusting off and tune up. Should have it back next weekend. I didn't have to wait til June. :)

And I'm finally making the phone calls to start exploring the surgery that might fix the root cause of the horrible joint issues that took my biking (and my swimming, and my weight training, and my hiking) away from me. That ultimately took my health away from me.

So I want to thank you. Seriously. From the bottom of my heart.

Your biking posts have reminded me of what I used to love so much, and made me realize that I've still got a chance to fix this. I'm 24 years old, with a lot of life ahead of me. I shouldn't give up and resign myself to this life of constant pain. And of being **overweight. And of always feeling tired and unhealthy.

Thank you.

**(in a bad way, as in, with already emerging directly related health issues, and a family history so full of diabetes it is a true miracle I don't have it yet)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-22 04:35 pm (UTC)
That kind of wreck scares the daylights out of me. I will wear out a pair of brake pads keeping myself to 25 mph. I'm old and would probably DIE!

But I'm glad to be inspiring you! Yay!
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-05-22 04:30 pm (UTC)
GO YOU!!!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-22 04:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks!
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-05-22 06:04 pm (UTC)
i keep saying this. but i really. really. really need to get out there on my own bike. i thought about selling the one i have and raising funds to get myself an actual woman's bike. that would help me. i like the bike i have. but it was given to me and is definitely a man's bike. i have short legs, and if i raise the seat to where i really need it to be, then i can't reach the pavement. LOLOL
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-22 07:29 pm (UTC)
You shouldn't be able to reach the pavement. If you can, you have the seat too low. I have a men's frame for both my bikes and prefer it.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-05-22 08:10 pm (UTC)
for stops and starts.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-22 08:50 pm (UTC)
Yes. I have to step down off the saddle and straddle the center bar for stops and starts. This is how it should be.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-05-22 11:34 pm (UTC)
i'm too short to straddle that bar - and i was taught that you should be able to touch the ground with the toe of your shoe when you stop or start.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-23 02:04 am (UTC)
When you're in grade school, yes. Not as an adult. It's too hard on the knees.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-05-23 05:35 pm (UTC)
what do you do when you're stopped at a stop sign? i'm sorry i'm just confused.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-23 06:31 pm (UTC)
I step down from the saddle and straddle the center bar. The tongue of the saddle is about at the small of my back when I am straddling the center bar.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-05-23 07:55 pm (UTC)
ah i see. that makes sense.

also am riding a man's bike and it's a bit too big for me.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-23 09:33 pm (UTC)
Since I am tall, it works for me. Hope you can get a bike that fits you soon!
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-06-07 11:39 pm (UTC)
i found a huffy (i think?) at wal-mart earlier that i like. it's $88, and i was able to ride it comfortably. and it's blue. LOL
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-06-08 02:55 am (UTC)
Bike! Yay!
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-06-08 10:48 am (UTC)
Aiela has me dreaming about roller skates, too. LOL I dreamed I had a pair the other night and went skating and had a blast. I hope it's precognitive - that'd be awesome. :) But yeah - I thought about you and this conversation while I was looking at bikes. :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-06-08 02:10 pm (UTC)
I am terrified to try skating, but she is making it look like a lot of fun.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-06-11 04:34 pm (UTC)
she really is! and i've missed it a lot, honestly. i haven't had skates on since i had thomas!
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[User Picture]From: natf
2012-05-23 10:58 am (UTC)
Your "Living Graciously blog" link does not work, BTW.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-05-23 06:33 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure why that is displaying as a link at all in some browsers but not others. Hmmm.
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