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[Mar. 21st, 2014|10:48 am]
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Rebecca's MRI was yesterday. I will quote the Meyers for the results:

The MRI showed a mass behind Rebecca’s left eye that wasn’t there on the previous MRI. The doctors at CCF are communicating with the doctors at CHOP, who will determine what they can do.

We may be headed to Philadelphia this weekend, if they tell us they can remove the tumor. If they can’t remove it, given the tumor’s growth rate, Rebecca will likely live anywhere from a few more weeks to months, but nothing is impossible and studies are always being opened.

That is literally as much as we know right now. We are staying in a holding pattern until we get a decision from CHOP, and must ask you to do the same. Please don’t call or text the house or our cell phones. Comments here are fine, but we really can’t handle a flood of calls right now.

If we haven’t contacted or don’t contact you directly, please don’t take it personally. There are a lot of things we have to deal with right now, Rebecca’s sorrow and fear primary among them. We haven’t told her that she might die soon, because we don’t know that ourselves, but we have told her the bad rocks are back and that she might have more surgery and radiation treatments.

To which she said: “I hate that dumb ol’ rock and I want it to be gone!” And then curled up in our arms and wept.


I've been sitting here for five minutes, trying to figure out something to say that doesn't sound self-centered or self-indulgent. Right now I feel like I've been hollowed out and then smashed flat.
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[User Picture]From: cinema_babe
2014-03-21 02:57 pm (UTC)

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I am so, so very sorry. My prayers are with all of you and I'll keep hoping for something, anything, good to happen for Rebecca.
[User Picture]From: aiela
2014-03-21 03:07 pm (UTC)

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There are no words, just the constant refrain in the back of my head that I'd like to wake up now, please.
[User Picture]From: halfmoon_mollie
2014-03-21 03:07 pm (UTC)

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it sucks great big stones through bendy straws.

I'm sorry.

[User Picture]From: jmfunnyface
2014-03-21 03:12 pm (UTC)

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This is so incredibly sad. I'm so sorry.
[User Picture]From: losgunna
2014-03-21 03:22 pm (UTC)

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Been in your shoes with the exact same results, and it's awful. No family should ever have to go through this pain and suffering for their kid. My thoughts are with everybody involved, and all of my hopes and wishes are that they can knock this out safely for Rebecca.
[User Picture]From: sylphon
2014-03-21 03:51 pm (UTC)

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there are no words I can compile to even come close to expressing my thoughts, so I'll just say, I am so very sorry. My hopes and prayers and dreams are with her and her family.
[User Picture]From: anderyn
2014-03-21 03:52 pm (UTC)

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Oh man. That sucks so hard. I hope that they can do something to get Rebecca through this.

My best thoughts to her family of heart and spirit and hope.
[User Picture]From: ba1126
2014-03-21 04:26 pm (UTC)

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She's moved to the top of my prayer list, along with all those who love her. My thoughts will be with you all!
[User Picture]From: roadnotes
2014-03-21 04:26 pm (UTC)

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Listening, bearing witness, holding you and yours in my heart and mind.
[User Picture]From: the_siobhan
2014-03-21 05:17 pm (UTC)

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I am so so sorry. :-(
[User Picture]From: coeli
2014-03-21 06:49 pm (UTC)

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Awful news. I'm so sorry to hear it. Everyone touched by this is in my prayers.
[User Picture]From: kagomeshuko
2014-03-21 06:57 pm (UTC)

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My prayers go out to them. I can't imagine what it is like . . .
[User Picture]From: fallconsmate
2014-03-21 07:33 pm (UTC)

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children are supposed to outlive their parents. that's an unwritten rule that all parents understand. and when you love people and see that they're in a situation where this rule may be flat out busted to hell...

it hurts. and it hurts bad. and there's nothing that can be done but hurt for them, and love them, and let them know that you support them in whatever way you can.

like i am you with *hugs and hugs and much sorrow*
From: anonymousalex
2014-03-21 08:27 pm (UTC)

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This is too hard to bear even third-hand. Nobody should have to deal with it first- or second-.

-Alex
[User Picture]From: shezan
2014-03-21 10:51 pm (UTC)

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God how horrible. I'm thinking of you all.
[User Picture]From: ccr1138
2014-03-21 11:25 pm (UTC)

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I keep re-reading this (getting your and Ferrett's posts here and on FB) and even though I don't know these people and will probably never meet them, I am in tears. Sending waves of good wishes, prayers, and cosmic healing their way, for what it's worth.
[User Picture]From: longtimegone
2014-03-22 12:22 am (UTC)

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Man, what a gut punch. :( I'm so sorry. I will continue to keep everyone involved in my thoughts. I hope there is good news.
[User Picture]From: tfcocs
2014-03-22 01:10 am (UTC)

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My heart is breaking after reading this, and I do not even know them.

PS: I am in Philadelphia, so if they need anything if they do come here, please let me know how I can help. Email me as needed at TFCOCS at GMAIL dot COM.
[User Picture]From: lunabird
2014-03-22 03:55 am (UTC)

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My heart is breaking, hearing this. I went over to meyerweb and commented on the post there. I just lost my mother-in-law to brain cancer this last Sunday. I can't imagine what it's like to go through anything remotely like that with a little girl, with one's own child. I just... My heart goes out to you guys and the Meyers.
[User Picture]From: pachamama
2014-03-22 08:52 am (UTC)

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I am so so sorry to hear this. There are no words. {{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}
[User Picture]From: dabble
2014-03-22 11:30 am (UTC)

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Sending whatever cosmic energy I can her way. I am a Rebecca, too, and I have seen cancer in friends and family... I am thankful for love during these times. My love to you and yours, and my deep, deep hope that things go well xxx
[User Picture]From: mplsindygirl
2014-03-23 06:16 pm (UTC)

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Sending thoughts of light and love and peace to Rebecca and all who love her.
[User Picture]From: wednes
2014-03-23 10:33 pm (UTC)

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I'm so sorry. Wishing you all the strength to persevere.
[User Picture]From: cyan_blue
2014-03-24 07:07 am (UTC)

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Holding you all in my heart...
[User Picture]From: wilhelmina_d
2014-03-24 04:05 pm (UTC)

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I'm so very sorry. All of my best wishes for Rebecca, her family and you.