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So, about that journaling [May. 15th, 2014|04:00 pm]
Zoethe
Things fell apart at the end of March. I stepped wrong, and was in sudden and intense pain through my pelvic region and back. Now, I've done this before, with overuse, and always before a night of sleep set me right again.

Not this time. I called the doctor the next day and ended up at his office on April 2. He sent me to physical therapy. The therapist evaluated me and told me she thought I had a bulging disc in my midback. This meant no biking, no swimming, no running. Walking, and gentle exercises. But she was hopeful that we'd get me back on the road in no time.

A month later, I still couldn't sit in a straight-backed chair for more than 10 minutes before it started hurting. It was back to the doctor, and an MRI.

The results of the MRI. A small tear in one disc, several others with mild to moderate bulging, and in one place arthritic calcification to the point of starting to compress my spinal cord. "Moderate to severe."

So next Thursday I have an appointment with a neurosurgeon. All I want to do is get back to biking and swimming. I want to do my triathlons. I want to just get on with life.

Comparatively speaking, the pain is not horrible. It's throbbing, not sharp, and much of the time I am pretty okay. I just don't know if I'm going to hurt myself worse with any activity. If they tell me that I can live with this, I just need to do certain exercises, not do certain activities, and sit only on certain chairs, I can live with that.

But my imagination is running away with me. And it's hard not to worry. Particularly since I am not getting my workout endorphins.
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[User Picture]From: halfmoon_mollie
2014-05-15 08:09 pm (UTC)
I was wondering what had happened! I'm sorry to hear that you are hurt, and I hope the news is that you can be fixed right up.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-16 03:00 pm (UTC)
Probably not "right up," but managed. I can live with that.
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[User Picture]From: tylik
2014-05-15 08:10 pm (UTC)
I highly recommend Dr. Michael Schaeffer, director of musculoskeletal rehab at the clinic. He managed all the various stuff around my spine injury, and he's most excellent, and has working relationships with a number of the neurosurgeons as well.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-16 03:00 pm (UTC)
I will look into him. thanks.
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[User Picture]From: jesskastar
2014-05-15 10:52 pm (UTC)
You don't do things in half measures, eh? :P

I'm sorry you are hurt and it is preventing you from the life you want to live. I hope it heals well and quickly.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-16 03:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
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[User Picture]From: fluffydescent
2014-05-15 10:55 pm (UTC)
Oh that's awful news. I hope they are able to help you get back into it.

As a long time sufferer of back pain (scoliosis, compressed disc and degenerating disc issues) and as someone who was told last year I was no longer allowed to run because of my wonky mechanics... I was completely devastated, it was like I had lost a relationship. But, with time, patience and core strength exercises I have been able to get back into it. Slowly.

Hopefully, with time to recoup, you might be able get your endorphins back.

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you and send lots of positive vibes! .
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-16 03:01 pm (UTC)
You give me hope. Thank you very much.
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[User Picture]From: conscience
2014-05-16 12:20 am (UTC)
Good healing thoughts coming your way!
As a fellow 3 ruptured disc survivor (declined surgery when they said Id never walk without cane, 7yrs now, some pain to control on hard days at work on my feet all day but still going strong without that cane!) it may take some time to heal, but it will. I had to give up hardcore running, but swimming, cycling, weight lifting and yoga feels great to stretch things out. And movement is KEY to keeping things in working order, so endorphin on, lady!!! (as dr and body permits, of course!)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-16 03:02 pm (UTC)
It helps to hear that other people are managing with back issues! Thanks!!
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[User Picture]From: gythiawulfie
2014-05-16 01:25 pm (UTC)

Huge Hugs

As someone with multiple bulging and herniated disks and one desiccated disks (Neck and upper back), I hear you.

The pain isn't sharp, and that's what people don't get. They treated mine with epidurals. They seem to be holding. If the neurosurgeon offers that as a first go, I would recommend it. It will help relieve the inflammation which causes most of the pain. It's worth a try. My surgeon is very conservative and only cuts when there are no other alternatives.

But, I don't have a tear, so that may be something else entirely.

I also have the arthritis stuff. I never thought you got arthritis in your spine.

I have learned that simply setting a timer for 30 minutes to tell me to "stand and stretch" worked really well on bad pain days. But yea, sitting is weird.

And yes, I get the imagination running away from you, mine still does that. You'll get back on track. Don't beat yourself up too much (hard not to do, I know) if you don't hit your target dates. Those have to be moving. Oh, and you'll get back to training.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-16 03:03 pm (UTC)

Re: Huge Hugs

Thanks. I'm hoping that I will get the needle instead of the knife!
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2014-05-16 07:48 pm (UTC)
You'll be in my prayers.
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[User Picture]From: rhapsody_98
2014-05-20 03:23 am (UTC)
In February I had surgery for a herniated disc, and I went from being in pain whenever I was standing to none at all. I hope your doctor is as awesome as mine was, and that your discs cooperate like mine did. It really was a miracle, after a year of not walking, cooking from an office chair in the kitchen, and using electric carts to grocery shop, I felt like I got my life back.

I will get better!
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[User Picture]From: rhapsody_98
2014-05-20 03:23 am (UTC)
That was supposed to be IT will get better. heh.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2014-05-20 04:25 am (UTC)
Dang! One way or another, I'm praying for that kind of magic.
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