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Countdown to goodbye [Aug. 30th, 2004|09:16 am]
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Today is amy's last day here - tomorrow she flies back to Massachusetts. We've had a great visit.

It makes the goodbyes even harder.

I'm about to go fetch her out of bed. I really need to do homework for class tomorrow, but I sort of just don't care. I need to spend time with my kiddo. We won't do anything spectacular, just spend time together. After she is gone, there will be time enough for the rest of it.

I probably won't see her again until Christmas. Thanksgiving is Dad's turn this year, and though I offered to come up and see her for a three-day weekend, she said that the short visits are just too hard - they make her miss me too much.

Her dad and stepmom are still the optimal parents for her - she's not working outside the home and he has a government job and lots of time off. They can give her the time and attention I cannot. But it's so hard....

[User Picture]From: wolflady26
2004-08-30 01:42 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry, sweetie :(
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[User Picture]From: lothie
2004-08-30 02:22 pm (UTC)
Yeah...I had a whole lot to get done this weekend, but really, spending time with my daughter was more important.
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[User Picture]From: elfwench
2004-08-30 03:16 pm (UTC)
I've never know any parent as selfless and good hearted as you. {{HUGS}}
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[User Picture]From: chaosdancer
2004-08-30 03:46 pm (UTC)
Aww...I'm sorry it's your last day, but glad you had such a good time. I hope the time flies swiftly until you get to see her again.
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[User Picture]From: dawntreader90
2004-08-30 05:57 pm (UTC)

look at it this way...

she will smile and think of you every time she puts on earrings. :)

i'm happy the summer went so well for you all. and christmas isn't that far away. *hug*
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[User Picture]From: apostate_96
2004-08-30 07:05 pm (UTC)
That is rough. At the same time, no-one ever said being a good parent would be easy, even in the most optimal situations. You are putting your relationships with your kids as a high priority, and that is incredibly important. Good on you.

From what I've read, you're being a damn good mother to your kids. Hang in there.

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[User Picture]From: megthelegend
2004-08-31 07:15 am (UTC)
It must be awful, sweetie.

I have a 4 year old and another on the way (woo!) and I feel guilty & horrible when I spend an entire DAY away from my boy, even though I HAVE to work so we can afford to live, or when he does wonderful things with his Nana or his daycare, like wonderful craft stuff, but when I get home with him we basically just watch TV & eat.

And that's a much smaller scale than what you're going through.
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[User Picture]From: call_me_harmony
2004-08-31 11:51 am (UTC)
This must be an incredibly hard thing to do. Blessings.
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From: iggy182
2004-08-31 08:10 pm (UTC)
I know exactly how you feel.

I see two of my three kids for 5-8 hours every two weeks, and then off they go back with Vic to her parents were there's a ratio of 1.25 Adults per child.

Short visits are hard. Long visits are harder.
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[User Picture]From: batshua
2004-09-01 04:25 am (UTC)
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