Oh, gods. You and your niece have my sympathy. Would you mind if friends punched people in the face for you? (Somehow, the casual attitude people take towards miscarriages upsets me on a deep level. If the person wanted the pregnancy, then it's a loss like nothing else.)
If anything, the intangibility of the loss makes it harder. Because there's nothing concrete to say goodbye to.
I had a tubal pregnancy before I had my son. I only knew I was pregnant for 4 days, between going to the emergency in agony and having surgery (note: don't go to a Catholic hospital with a non-viable pregnancy, they'll still try to save it!) I wasn't planning to have a child. It was a very strange experience -- a huge psychic whiplash.
I too will shed a tear for your niece.
I understand. We had a miscarriage prior to our first daughter. It's the most painful, private loss.
Jeez I get depressed if my period starts when I've convinced myself that I must be pregnant because my period is 27 1/2 seconds late. I can't imagine what it must be like to actually be pregnant and lose it. My heart goes out to your niece. and you.
It is hard to deal with miscarriages, there is always the "what if" factor. =(
Thoughts and wishes to your niece and her husband that they find comfort soon. xo
The death of possibilities is so hard to take. My ex's first pregancy (her previous marriage) ended in miscarriage, and after two wonderful children, she never forgot it.
My aunt tried again and again to have children when she was in her 20s and 30s, and each time had a miscarriage, and I can still hear the grief in her voice to this day, now that she is approaching 60.
My condolences to you, even now, and your niece.
I went to the hospital for bad abdominal pains and that´s when they told me I had a miscarriage. I was only 2 weeks along, wasn´t planning on having children for a few more years, wasn´t even ready...but it still hurts.
I didn't know I was pregnant either. At first they told me I just had ovarian cysts and that the intense bleeding was just from a terrible period. Then, the blood test came back positive for pregnancy...and I felt like I had been dropkicked in the gut.
I can't imagine the pain involved with losing a child, under any circumstances, after any amount of time. My heart goes out to your niece (and to you). I doubt there are words to assuage the pain but the thoughts and sympathy are there, however ineptly they are expressed.
2006-07-02 10:09 pm (UTC)
now that is a great statement
I would love to be able to save that quote and pull it out when needed since it is so very well formed, worded and presented... amazing wonderful lovely way of saying it and I wish more people could pull that kind of sympathy from out around the foot they are talking past.
1 miscarriage by period- 18 y/o
1 medically-needed abortion- 20 y/o
! Pregnant for my 29th b-day now w/ 7 week old infant- Kenneth Morgan
colic is hell but if I had miscarried I would I sent myself to hell.
I was in hospital last week. The woman in the bed next to me had just suffered a second miscarriage after three healthy births. We spoke about it a bit. She didn't seem to know how to feel and we went through all this-- stuff. Like, it isn't like she has no kids but-- I've had two early miscarriages(hers were 16 and 17 weeks) and I definitely was disappointed. It was like I was helping her try to figure it all out-- to understand her degree of grief. When she came in, she was very self-disparaging but by the time I left, I think she'd come to the conclusion that though it wasn't the end of the world, she needed space and time to grieve. I'm glad I could be a sounding board. I hope I was, anyway.
It sounds like you performed real angel work there. Thank you.
Oh I am so sorry to hear that, she and little baby are in my prayers Gini. No one ever truly understands loss, it is like love, you can tell someone how it makes you feel-but they'll never know until they experience it themselves. Hugs
Please accept my deepest sympathies to you and your niece.
I lost a child to miscarriage too and still can't make some people understand the hurt and sense of loss I will always carry with me. I too know what it's like to stand in the church foyer with tears in my eyes. This is one of the handful of times in all of my years lurking and posting on LJ that I have been so deeply moved by a post.
I'm very sorry for your niece (and you). This was well written. *hugs*
There's no explaining to anyone how it feels. There's no reconciling it, yourself, without wondering if you caused it to happen by carelessness or something you'd done or not done.
It's like someone reached into your breast and plucked away a piece of your soul. You never get it back. Time does heal the hurt, but it never makes you whole.
I'm so sorry for your niece and for her husband. And for you. And me, and the other families who've realized what it's like to have something so precious slip away.
"It's like someone reached into your breast and plucked away a piece of your soul. You never get it back. Time does heal the hurt, but it never makes you whole."
Yeah...that's a pretty damned accurate description of how you feel. Incomplete. That pretty much describes how I feel since my miscarriage in May.