This is so inadequate, but...
Have a big cup of tea and curl up in your favorite robe and slippers, or even a cuddly blanket.Take your meds and get a good night's sleep. You'll feel better tomorrow. When your body is pushed physically (stressed, cold, tired), it doesn't take much to go into emotional overload. You don't need a pep talk, you need rest.
Getting ready to go to bed, a belly full of theraflu topped off with a glass of wine. I intend to sleeeeep.
I adore you, sugar. I wish I could make you feel better.
Just knowing you care helps a bit.
I am having a very big pout tonight.
Glad you made it home in one piece, at least physically.
I know that when I'm sick my emotions are much more likely to run away with me. It doesn't make it easier to handle the feelings at the time, but it helps when I can remember that what I'm dealing with isn't necessarily the way it really is....or will be from here out.
Actually giving myself permission to have a good, long pout is making me feel better, interestingly enough.
I do hope you can take one last leisure/fun ride through the park so you can end the season on a good ride. Good luck with winter excercise, because I know I never want to. :-P
Oh, I will still ride on the weekends for fun, as long as the weather stays nice. I just can't deal with the impending darkness, the blinding sunrises and sunsets, and the equally blinded drivers blazing past me.
I'm sleeping in tomorrow morning. No bike, I promise.
Man, it was just such a Thursday today... I had no such valid reason as you did, but I was teary and fragile all day too. *hugs*
Ok, everyone else already said what I planned on writing - so I'll just say "What they said!" and also *huggs* :-)
I had a commuting close-call and never felt "right" afterwards. So I stick to riding around my neighborhood or going to bike paths and such. Biking is so much different without the stress.
I just took a walk to the store and back ... and on the way back, it was dark except for all the car headlights glaring in my face. I had to keep my eyes on the sidewalk in front of me so I didn't veer all over (I discombobulate rather easily, I fear) and had barely any peripheral vision. I can imagine how much worse this would be on a bike, and feeling ill, and nervous because of a recent accident! Poor you!
I hope you feel better!
*big hugs* I'm glad you're safe, at least.
I remember when I used to ride a motorcycle. I remember some very close calls (but no accidents, thank the Goddess). I remember when construction got much worse, and the roads got a lot scarier. And I remember one day deciding the risk was not worth the fun, and deciding to stop riding for awhile. And then I remember getting rid of the motorcycle because I hadn't ridden it in several years.
Hopefully you'll be able to get back on the bike next season and keep riding.
I still plan to do some pleasure riding this fall - not giving up quite that easily - and getting back to it in the spring. I do like it, it's great exercise. But that was a bad, bad day.
Sometimes it is entirely appropriate to roll up in a ball, weep, moan, and just flat out be sick. I am so sorry that this happened to you and I hope you feel better soon.
(ps: remember also that cold medicines usually mess with one's mind.)
Re: cold medicines. Usually they don't bother me much, or at least not in a perceptible way. Then again, I don't usually bike while taking them!
Wow. That sounds like so many incidents i've had (i'm not a rider.. I mean feeling vulnerable, exposed, and skittish. That's always a recipe for disaster.) I feel confident that you'll be able to get back on next season with little-to-no problem, especially seeing as you intend to still ride on weekends, and seeing as how you enjoy it so. That still doesn't take the bad taste from your mouth. I hope you have a good night.
I slept well, thanks. Still sick this morning, but that just takes time.