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Well THAT'S better [Jul. 22nd, 2008|11:06 am]
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Finally feeling human again. Even if it took getting up this morning, working a little while, and then collapsing for an hour's nap. It was quite strange: I can only describe it as my body shaking off the last of the sickness like a dog shaking water from its fur. Now all I have is that post-illness, quiet feeling. The one that says, don't get all carried away, bucko, and you'll be fine.

I had a strange dream last night. Actually, most of the dream was the standard sort of "aliens invading the world, try to find someplace safe to hide." fare. But all my allies were strangers to me, a group of doubters in a world otherwise enthusiastically welcoming the aliens. And the first place we found to hide was discovered by other humans whose eyes were opened by the actual raid. But when I found a second, more secure hiding place, I was determined only to share it with the original group and to leave the late arrivals to their fate. I thought they were stupid and didn't deserve to be saved.

This seems a rather strange attitude for someone who fashions herself compassionate toward the underprivileged. And yet when I think about it, it's not really contradictory. I am concerned with the growing education gap. I think it is the job of society to do what it can to give people an opportunity to get on the playing field, even though it will never be level. I believe that regulation is necessary to prevent upstream producers from dumping their cost of doing business on the little guy downstream.

But once people have the same information and the ability to process it, if they are going to continue being stupid and ignoring consequences, well then my compassion dries up and they're on their own.

You can believe in both social and personal responsibility. If one accepts that, then we are just discussing matters of degree.

(Yeah, that kind of rambled all over the place. Blame it on post-infirmity brain.)

[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2008-07-22 03:59 pm (UTC)
It's very true, and I think it's part of the reason why my mother was so smart in letting my older brother make an idiot of himself seven years ago (good lord, it has been that long). Basically, he had a toxic girlfriend, and he let her decide a bunch of stuff for him, such as dropping out of college (twice), getting minimum wage jobs, living in a pig sty, and basically just fucking up his life. My mother, instead of giving them money and trying to help them, basically told me brother that it was his hole, he dug it, and he would have to get himself out of it. And it took him a good four years to do so, but the day he finally dumped that girl and moved to where we are was the day his life started improving. And now he's a college graduate, has a lovely fiancee and a secure job, and is that much wiser for spending those years living paycheck to paycheck and occasionally being evicted from places and listening to that evil girl. Most mothers would care too much about their children to let them learn that way (although it shouldn't be said that my mother didn't suffer, watching her eldest son in that state), but my mother is a good mom.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2008-07-22 04:19 pm (UTC)
Enabling is not love. What your mom did, that's love.
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[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2008-07-22 04:29 pm (UTC)
Yep, she is a very good mom. I make sure to tell her so every so often. She makes up for my dad's lack of parenting in a lot of ways. n.n;;;
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[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2008-07-22 07:38 pm (UTC)
I don't really get that vibe, actually. It seemed to me that Finding Nemo was actually more about a parent having to let go and know that their child will do okay without their help all the time. I didn't get the impression that Marlin would willingly let Nemo do anything until he learned to let go.

So maybe it's kind of the same thing, but I'm looking at it from a different angle than you are.

Edited at 2008-07-22 07:39 pm (UTC)
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