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A point of clarification [Jun. 6th, 2009|12:31 pm]
Zoethe
The shit-flipping that I did last night? That was completely *my* shit-flipping. It was what upset *me*. Ferrett's reasons for deleting his journal were not my reasons for flipping out.

Here are his reasons, from him:

I really didn't want to do this, but I'm making one brief announcement here.

I'm not upset by people who stay on the attack. In the incident in
question, which I really would have preferred not to be blown up into
something bigger than it was, the issue was not the folks who were angry
enough to shut down dialogues. (And they weren't particularly bad, either,
mostly civil.)

I was upset by the people I cared about who were hurt.

The issue is that I'm tired of making posts that say the exact opposite of
what I feel. I'm tired of hurting people who don't deserve it. I'm tired
of saying things which, due to poor wording or misguided humor or whatever
other numerous flaws I have, manage to keep kicking good, wonderful people
in the heart.

Over the past sixteen months, I've been dealing with the increasing feeling
that my journal is just a place that serves to make me look like a fool,
foster opinions I don't stand behind, and injure people. I'm starting to
hurt every time I hit the "post" button, wondering what asshole thing I'll
missay this time. And just when I think I'm okay, I screw up again.

My goal is, and has always been, to promote harmony, peace, love,
acceptance, and tolerance. I just wish I could do better at that. And I'm
sorry that I don't.
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[User Picture]From: ravenofdreams
2009-06-06 05:05 pm (UTC)
Ohh, Ferrett, that's... terrible. For what little it probably helps, seeing as you don't know me, I suspect that most of the people around here think that you do promote harmony, tolerance, acceptance, and all that. Even when or if you occasionally misspeak, most of your readers know it was not meant in malice, and accept your explanations.
There are, sadly, people for whom nothing is ever good enough, but nothing can be done about them. You do your best, and we all love and respect you for it.

And Gini - thank you as well for all of this. Much warmth to both of you. (And now I will endeavor to stop cluttering up your journal with comments.)
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