|Moot court and stage fright
||[May. 28th, 2003|06:48 am]
Got up this morning to prep for the coming tryouts this evening. Last night's practice was kind of a disaster. I got really nervous and couldn't remember anything, got going, but then couldn't keep up the rhythm. Shaky voice, shaky hands.
I am not an accomplished public speaker. :-/
This fact has always been an irritant to me. I couldn't get up in front of the local quilting group and make a presentation without feeling half sick. Even leading the girl scout troup always had me feeling nervous.
Now, I'm fine when given a script. Back when I was a practicing Catholic and served as a lector at Mass, people regularly came up to me afterwards and complimented me on my accomplished reading. So if I could just read my little talk, I would be fine.
But that isn't the point of Moot Court. It's designed to hone litigation skills, flexibility, confidence.
All that stuff I don't have when I have to stand up and speak from behind the podium.
People who know me find this hard to believe. I'm sure my classmates would find it hard to believe - I am always ready to offer comment in class, after all.
That's not the same as having all eyes trained upon you while you work your way through an argument.
It's something I would rather run away from. I almost didn't go last night, and if I could get away with talking myself out of it today, I would. I won't, though, because even though I will probably blow this, it's a good experience and a skill I need to learn.
But, man, do I hate it.