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And now the melting down [Sep. 26th, 2010|01:33 pm]
Zoethe
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I got the stuff off the shelves for the china cabinet, but it means that stuff is crammed into every drawer and my kitchen counters are completely covered with glassware at least until the paint dries - possibly longer, since there is little point in washing everything and putting it back on the shelves prior to the mess of dust that pulling up the carpet and refinishing the floors will cause. So it's all going to get worse before it gets better - the bed from the guestroom will need to be taken apart and stowed in either the office or our bedroom, the dining table has to go into a basement that is already full up to the gills, and when it's finally finished I have to put it all back.

Now, add to all this fun the fact that my one guaranteed anxiety-attack scenario is overcrowded, dusty shops where stuff is precariously perched around me.

My home is not a haven or sanctuary right now; it is like one of those bad Disney dreams where the thing you fear most is lurking and ready to pounce. Even in my relatively unmolested bedroom I am acutely aware of what waits right outside.

This is not a good day for the Gini. And it's likely not to be a very good week for the Gini.

Ferrett wants me to go to Lowe's with him and look at light fixtures for our living room. I realize that getting out of the house is probably a good thing, but I'm still feeling a bit sick and very resistant to the idea. Which is probably a sign that I should go.

I know it's going to be totally worth it in the end, but right now I'm voting for the fetal position.
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[User Picture]From: gardenwaltz
2010-09-26 05:41 pm (UTC)
I remember being very traumatized by our own painting and carpeting adventures. I would vote for getting out of dodge as much as possible.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 06:55 pm (UTC)
Ferrett dragged me out and it was A Good Thing. I have more perspective after just half an hour away.
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[User Picture]From: aiela
2010-09-26 05:43 pm (UTC)
Have you considered getting an inexpensive hotel room for a couple of days, even if you don't spend all day there, just to have some sort of away-from-the-house place to go for a while?
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[User Picture]From: naath
2010-09-26 05:48 pm (UTC)
Or a storage place for the stuff? I've no idea about the US market for that kind of thing but here I think it would be cheaper than a hotel room.
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[User Picture]From: jenk
2010-09-26 06:34 pm (UTC)
If the basement's getting full, one of those Pod things for moving could be cool. Pack stuff into it in the driveway, then unpack when done. No idea how much they cost though.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 07:01 pm (UTC)
We're reaching the end of the stuff that needs to go in the basement, and it's only another week. I will bull through.
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[User Picture]From: jenk
2010-09-26 07:48 pm (UTC)
The tent idea (from the later post) has a lot of what I thought of with the pod - physically there, so convenient. Even better is you can hang in the tent :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 08:08 pm (UTC)
That's what I'm thinking, though not getting a lot of positive feedback from the spousal unit.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 06:59 pm (UTC)
It's not worth the work of hauling the stuff to a storage unit, and frankly if I have to rent a storage unit to hold my stuff, then I need to get rid of stuff!

This will all be done in another week. I will survive.
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[User Picture]From: laplor
2010-09-26 06:40 pm (UTC)
Totally! I have been known to tent in the back yard during renos - it upsets me so badly!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 07:05 pm (UTC)
Tenting may actually be a good idea, even if we just put a bed and a couple chairs out there, for sleeping away from the dust while not having to trek back and forth for our stuff. I will have to discuss this with Ferrett - we have a three room tent we've never even put up!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 06:58 pm (UTC)
As much as all this is costing, I really don't feel comfortable spending more money for that. And I would inevitably need something that was back out the house.

Ferrett got me out for a little while and it really did help. If I start feeling panicky again, I can escape to the Starbucks just up the road.
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[User Picture]From: kisekinotenshi
2010-09-26 06:14 pm (UTC)
*Hugs* I second the hotel room vote, just for a few days.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 07:00 pm (UTC)
Just getting out of the house has helped. I'm doing better. If the work on the floors is too terrible, I will consider that.
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[User Picture]From: kibbles
2010-09-26 06:38 pm (UTC)
Same with the hotel, cheap airport type place, as long as it is clean, can be refreshing.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 07:02 pm (UTC)
I'm going to try and hold out, for the sake of our budget (the floors, though we are getting a great deal on them, were not planned for at this time so we're stretching). But I may opt for a hotel for health reasons if doing the floors is too bad.
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[User Picture]From: polymorphism
2010-09-26 07:16 pm (UTC)
Surely there must be local crash space available!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 07:18 pm (UTC)
So many of our friends have cats! And it doesn't solve the "need to get to stuff" issue. I'm leaning toward the tent idea.
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[User Picture]From: fortuna_juvat
2010-09-26 07:22 pm (UTC)

Visualization Therapy

I will now spam you with images of brightly painted adorable homes with hardwood floors.

That are spotlessly clean. :) It's all about visualizing the end product.








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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 08:02 pm (UTC)

Re: Visualization Therapy

I adore that first one! And, yes, it helps to imagine what it's going to be like when all is finished.

Unfortunately, my mental picture of happiness has about 1/3 less stuff than we actually own!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-26 08:06 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. It's definitely a First World Problem, and I'm a little ashamed at being such a baby about it.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2010-09-27 01:43 pm (UTC)
When you get both physically and mentally upset, that isn't "being a baby", though compared to third world problems, does put it in perspective.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-27 02:50 pm (UTC)
It's definitely a stress, but I'm trying not to let myself lose too much perspective about it.
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[User Picture]From: donkey_hokey
2010-09-27 03:25 pm (UTC)
Some days, being an adult totally sucks.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2010-09-27 03:31 pm (UTC)
It does, indeed. The REALLY fun part is going to be the tug-of-war over what goes back upstairs, what finds a home in the basement, and what gets binned.
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