|Overwhelmed and grateful. And also overwhelmed.
||[Aug. 26th, 2011|08:53 am]
I tried to keep up with the condolence wishes, but then we had a 20-hour power outage all day yesterday, and Erin asked me to please come fetch her so she could get a day away from the intensity of family, and tomorrow is the funeral, and All The Things are due next week for work, and I simply got overwhelmed.|
But I read each wish with much gratitude and found much comfort in each one. And I thank you all for taking the time to send your thoughts and prayers.
Today I have time with Erin until her dad comes to fetch her, and I have a ton of work, and I have to bake for a party tomorrow evening, plus bread. The end of August is happening at the speed of "pelt" and I'm not really ready for that....
There's really not a good way to get through this except be gentle. You did good.
(Not that you needed me to validate you, but I wanted to say something. These times are awkward. Much love.)
Edited at 2011-08-26 01:08 pm (UTC)
Thanks. It's good to have the support.
I was late with my condolences, but please know I am thinking of you, wishing her good journey, and you and yours grief that goes as easy as it can.
I don't expect everyone to keep up with my journal all the time; life happens. Thank you, dear. Love you, too.
No, it really doesn't. If only I could do away with that pesky "sleep" part....
*gentle hugs* I didn't say, but you are in my thoughts, and I hope activity brings you peace.
Thank you. I am glad to be able to be moving again, that's for certain.
No, I am baking the Stilton cheesecake. With bacon.
You have my deepest sympathies. Thinking strong and coping thoughts for you and yours.
And I will continue to keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers.
You have every right to grieve someone who meant so much to you at one time in your life. If anyone faults you for it, well, shame on them for being narrow-minded and, quite possibly, mean spirited. BTW, being hard on yourself for feeling whatever it is you feel won't keep you sane or even help you to be a better person. It just wastes energy. If you choose to spend more time accentuating the positive things you see about yourself the negatives will have to fade as you won't have time for them. Yes, I do so wish I could always do that in my life and I am still growing into doing that. It takes time and seventy years is just not quite enough for me to do it all day every day as I know I should. All I can do is hope to keep improving on doing so. Peace ---Ellen
P.S. I'm still shy about even trying sourdough bread. I also tend to make my breads in the bread machine. I say it is to avoid getting cat hair in it, but know it is really because I don't have the patience to do it the old fashioned way. The dutch oven tip sounds intriguing though. Maybe I'll try just going to dough stage in the machine once in a while to try the dutch over idea as I have one, I do need to get the oven mitts to handle it hot though. Peace ----Ellen
I went, and I'm glad I went, but it was really hard.
Don't shy away from sourdough. It's not that hard. And dutch over is the bomb.
Take it easy. Be gentle with yourself and those you meet. Wish I could give you a hug.