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Thhhppt [Nov. 1st, 2011|03:22 pm]
Zoethe
I would like to be writing a glowing post-con report about how much fun I had at World Fantasy (and I did), but for some reason today I am feeling like simply crying incessantly or crawling back into bed. This is not the start of November I was looking for. It can go about its business and move along.

My house also looks like it was ransacked by ADD pirates: they made a mess, but forgot to actually take anything. I am intellectually aware that this is not improving my mood, but cannot muster the energy to get off the couch and do anything about it.

What I am is a crabby 4-year-old. I'm bored by what I'm doing, but don't want to do anything else, either. The only difference is that I'm old enough to know that flinging myself to the floor in a tantrum would only result in additional joint pain and bruises later.

Fingers crossed that tomorrow I will be better. Messages of encouragement and love gladly accepted.
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[User Picture]From: halfmoon_mollie
2011-11-01 07:24 pm (UTC)
Something to which you were looking forward is now over for another year. I think your reaction is perfectly understandable.

November is kind of an Eeyore month. And you know, a tantrum isn't such a bad idea. How about if you fling yourself onto say, the bed and kicking and screaming?

(((hugs))) to you. It will get better.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:04 am (UTC)
I usually like November. I hope I shake this and get to.
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[User Picture]From: miintikwa
2011-11-01 07:26 pm (UTC)
I can so relate. I would come over and clean for you if I could!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:05 am (UTC)
Some of that I got done, at least.
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[User Picture]From: p_m_cryan
2011-11-01 07:31 pm (UTC)
::::hugs you, probably because I need a hug myself::::
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:46 am (UTC)
Hugs you back!!!
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[User Picture]From: shadowwolf13
2011-11-01 07:31 pm (UTC)
*offers hugs*

I'd offer to help clean too if I were local.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:47 am (UTC)
Making a dent in the mess probably did the most toward improving my mood.
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[User Picture]From: rollick
2011-11-01 07:45 pm (UTC)
What I am is a crabby 4-year-old. I'm bored by what I'm doing, but don't want to do anything else, either.

Oh man, I so completely know how that feels. I associate it strongly with both being tired and being depressed. To the degree that I can shake it at all, I usually shake it by going for a walk and listening to a podcast or some music — even if I can't really *enjoy* it because the pleasure receptors are all off, at least I'm doing something that's physically good for me. And sometimes strenuous physical activity can lift a depression.

It's also comfortingly low-demand: Very few decisions to make, at least of the kind that feel overwhelming enough to induce helplessness in a depressed mind. Once I'm outside, robot-body takes over and things get at least a little better. I've gotten through entire bad winters that way, even if it means slogging through knee-deep snow.

Good luck. Depression bites big hairy asses.
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[User Picture]From: trillian42
2011-11-01 11:28 pm (UTC)
Ninjai bird!

< /ot >
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[User Picture]From: lawchicky
2011-11-01 07:56 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

I don't even want to LOOK in my own living room today, and I have to get it cleaned out before tomorrow morning so that we can finally get our pinball machine sold/picked up.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:49 am (UTC)
We have people coming over on Friday, so I need to get it done.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:50 am (UTC)
Okay! I believe you!
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[User Picture]From: soldiergrrrl
2011-11-01 07:59 pm (UTC)
Oh man, do I know how that feels. *hugs*

I want to go home, put on footies and just veg. I can't, not the least reason being that I'd roast in Texas even in November.
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[User Picture]From: alexmegami
2011-11-01 08:54 pm (UTC)
(As an aside, your icon is awesome. May I steal it?)
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From: simulated_knave
2011-11-01 08:03 pm (UTC)
Lower yourself gently to the floor in a tantrum?

Alternately, what I do when I'm feeling this way is fold my arms in front of myself, and sulkily flap them against my chest while pouting and making a stereotypically childish noise of grumpiness.

It works wonders.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:51 am (UTC)
I've been known to stamp my feet on occasion.
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[User Picture]From: smallekins
2011-11-01 08:11 pm (UTC)

Love & Hugs - Both!

Well, I love you and I do understand the overwhelming urge to sit down and not clean. So I send unto you HUGS! (The warm and snuggly kind even!) Hope you feel fresher and more positive tomorrow.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:52 am (UTC)

Re: Love & Hugs - Both!

Fortunately I was smart enough to clean!
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[User Picture]From: kathrynrose
2011-11-01 08:11 pm (UTC)
hugshugshugshugshugshugs

Hang in there and remember you are made of awesomesauce.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:52 am (UTC)
Thank you. That really helps.
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[User Picture]From: aiela
2011-11-01 08:14 pm (UTC)
Sending hugs and love and kisses and I hope you feel better soon. This is just a low energy week period, I think. Go lock yourself in the cleanest room of your house and pretend the rest of it doesn't exist. ;)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:53 am (UTC)
None were clean at the time, but when I came back from dinner to a clean kitchen, I almost cried with relief.
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[User Picture]From: xpioti
2011-11-01 08:50 pm (UTC)
My crabby 4-year-old moments are usually caused by low blood sugar; a small snack (cheese and crackers, PB & celery, that sort of thing) usually sets me right as rain.

*hugs!* still help. :) *hugs!*
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:53 am (UTC)
Thanks!
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[User Picture]From: alexmegami
2011-11-01 08:55 pm (UTC)
I, too, have the November blahs. 1 AM rolled around, I was like, "hey, I'll go to bed" and my brain was like "HOW ABOUT YOU TRY SELF-LOATHING INSTEAD" and I was like "but... no?" and it was like "TOO BAD" so I stayed awake until 4AM hating my body and my lack of creativity. Good times.

And it's carried over into today, as well. *kicks it*

Best of luck to you getting past today and into a better tomorrow. :)
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:57 am (UTC)
Poor dear. Hope it departs soon. It's weird for me because I usually like November.
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[User Picture]From: roadnotes
2011-11-01 08:58 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

The month will improve.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2011-11-02 02:57 am (UTC)
Thanks.
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