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A Day of Reckoning [Feb. 1st, 2012|01:22 pm]

For over a quarter century I have been drinking Lipton Sugar Free Instant Iced Tea, a concoction of chemical sweetness and caffeination that has kept me going through raising kids, working, divorce and remarriage, moving across country, and more.

It's vile stuff, really. But I am addicted.

This food product does not fit into my current determination to eliminate chemicals from my life. I have stopped eating prepackaged foods, have stopped buying foods produced in artificially low-fat versions, and am committed to cooking real food from scratch. As part of my determination to eat clean, I vowed that, once these final jars of the tea were gone, I would stop drinking it. In preparation, I had limited myself to only one large glass of it a day, rather than throughout the day. I could see the end coming, so I was getting ready.

Yesterday I made what I thought was my next-to-last glass of this instant iced tea. Today, I went into the kitchen to ceremoniously make the final glass. A glass to savor, to appreciate. A glass to say goodbye.

As it turned out, there was only a little dusting of the tea in the bottom of the jar. I'm not sure how I didn't notice it yesterday, but there was only enough for one weak ounce of tea.

I was, shall we say, dismayed. I had a plan for this. And that plan was smacked down.

Oh, also? It's That Time Of Month. It was kind of a perfect storm of "NOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

So here I am. I've made a cup of hot tea to stave off caffeine withdrawal, and I have a big glass of water. I'm pleased to be getting this last daily dose of artificially manufactured food out of my life. I expect that in a matter of a few days I won't miss it anymore.

But that is not this day.

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[User Picture]From: mplsindygirl
2012-02-01 06:31 pm (UTC)
I quit drinking coffee for about a week. My innards appreciated the change and settled down nicely. I've started coffee again, but only every few days, and have found a really nice black tea I like. Too bad it was brought directly from China, as I'll not be able to get more once it runs out.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-01 06:37 pm (UTC)
I am going to rely on tea, and I expect that my caffeine intake will fall drastically. But I do like the occasional cup of coffee. I have to keep some caffeine tolerance!
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From: phillipalden
2012-02-01 06:44 pm (UTC)
Good for you!

I quit smoking cigarettes last November and I gave up caffeine a few days ago.

My only (consumable) vice left is my "sweet tooth." I eat well enough that I'm not overly worried about this vice.

I wish you continued good luck on your positive lifestyle changes. Some days it doesn't feel like it - but it is worth the effort.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-01 06:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I am quite pleased with the positive changes myself. It's not always easy. But the couple times temptation has gotten the best of me, I've been so ill that McDonald's holds NO more attraction.
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From: anonymousalex
2012-02-01 08:50 pm (UTC)
Good on you for sticking to your guns despite this little bump in the road.

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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-01 09:40 pm (UTC)
I'm definitely having some withdrawal crankiness right now. But I think that's mostly from my thinking about it than really missing it--when we go to California I don't drink it and almost never think about it. But I do have coffee in the morning there.
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[User Picture]From: mariadkins
2012-02-01 09:51 pm (UTC)
i went caffeine free in august 2004. i started out around this time of year by getting rid of my coffee maker and switching from coffee to tea. then i started drinking less and less tea through the day. the only time i have caffeine now is when i have a headache / migraine that i need to get rid of in a hurry - and/or if i just plain get to sleep. and over the last few months i've been trying really hard to cut soda out of my diet. that's been a pain in my ass. i told someone yesterday i feel like i've become addicted to the HFCS in soda and now my body is making going without it complete hell. it's like my body screams i must have all the sweet things! ugh!
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-01 10:11 pm (UTC)
I'm glad I gave up sugared sodas years ago. I wouldn't want to be dealing with that.
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[User Picture]From: nex0s
2012-02-01 10:33 pm (UTC)
You can do it!!!!

*cheers you on*

I gave up sweet stuff to drink a while back - instead I just drink VAST amounts of seltzer now. Bubbly! And we get to make seltzer which is always fun :)

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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-02 02:08 am (UTC)
I don't like fizzy water, but I don't mind just plain water, so that's cool.

Good for you!
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[User Picture]From: fallconsmate
2012-02-01 11:32 pm (UTC)
i'm not caffiene-free, but i HAVE noticed that i cannot drink anything caffienated past about 3:30 in the afternoon or i will NOT be able to sleep at night till about 4 am. period. no matter if i DO take a sleep aid.

and it irritates the hell out of me that anyone who *does* want to have fast food and no caffiene is fine if they can have sugar...but if you *cant* your choice is water. period.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-02 02:09 am (UTC)
I don't mind water, so that's okay for me.
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[User Picture]From: kibbles
2012-02-02 01:30 am (UTC)
I cannot give up the diet pepsi. No way. I just can't. I've done plenty, it made an impact, but that's where I fail.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-02 02:10 am (UTC)
Ferrett managed to give it up by having his appendix burst.

I don't recommend it as a method.
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[User Picture]From: pachamama
2012-02-02 09:31 am (UTC)
I was forcibly detoxed when I was diagnosed with Meniere's Disease -- no caffeine (including no chocolate!), no alcohol and extremely low-salt. Although I was quite a coffee fan and loved me a cocktail or good bottle of wine, I actually found the no-salt to be the very hardest. It was quite an education to find out how much salt there is in absolutely everything I love -- not just the obvious like olives and pickled things and smoked things and most sauces, but also cheeses and breads and cakes and breakfast cereals. Crazy.

I now buy quality decaf beans and grind them fresh, but even that has traces of caffeine so I can't do it often. I don't miss it nearly as much as I thought I would.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-02 01:43 pm (UTC)
No salt would be the hardest for me. That's rough.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-02 08:42 pm (UTC)


I'm having some serious withdrawal issues today, I must admit.
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[User Picture]From: etain
2012-02-02 07:21 pm (UTC)
One of the things I like to do, when I remember to, is make like a gallon of tea over the weekend and drink it throughout the week as a tea-fix. (It better embodies the need that instant/bottled tea fulfills.)

I've been trying to handle the sweet tooth I developed in December with gin and tonics. (Like after dinner!) That's better, right?
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2012-02-02 08:43 pm (UTC)
I am definitely having some sweet tooth issues. But I'm trying to hold out. Cold turkey is sometimes better.
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