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Ferrett improving. Me an emotional rollercoaster mess [Jan. 19th, 2013|01:25 pm]
Zoethe
Ferrett is feeling much better, and is in a good ward with really helpful staff. He's been up doing the recovery laps around the ward. He's eating.

I'm a mess. I was filled with grouchy fury this morning--coaxed out of it a good deal by Erin, who insisted that we go for a jog. Getting out in the fresh air and sunshine was definitely a good thing.

But then I read a response from a friend on a completely unrelated topic on Facebook that felt like a mild scold to me, and I broke down and sobbed for five minutes. It's the kind of thing that usually wouldn't bother me at all, and today just tore me up.

This is all going to be long and slow in so many ways besides physical.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2013-01-19 07:51 pm (UTC)
I don't like it.
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[User Picture]From: sacramentalist
2013-01-19 08:00 pm (UTC)
You're only super-human
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[User Picture]From: laplor
2013-01-19 08:25 pm (UTC)
Sacramentalist is right!

You have held it together until now because you had to, but with the worst of the crisis over you can (almost) spare a little while to fall apart.

It's beautifully normal, although difficult to deal with.

At a similar point, I had a crying, raging "fit" in a bathroom, and then picked up and carried on. It's even more important now that you rest, and get that fresh air and good food that you need to carry on.
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