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100 days: 25% through [Mar. 26th, 2014|03:54 pm]
Things have been more than a little tough around here. With Rebecca's cancer, it just seemed rather frivolous to be writing about my silly little goals. But in a moment between I thought I'd report in.

First of all, 100 days is a long-ass time. What the hell was I thinking?

Then I remember that it isn't long at all, in many ways.

I've been to the gym every day It's the one thing I have managed to do consistently. Today is the first day that I haven't gotten there yet, but I'm gonna try.

The cooking has been dismal. I haven't been practicing Italian. I have been reading. Journaling, some. I did actually work on a quilt a little bit.

I'm not going to apologize for my mediocre performance. A lot of days I haven't even wanted to get out of bed.

But I am gonna hit that gym.

[User Picture]From: bunny42
2014-03-26 09:04 pm (UTC)
Out of a lifetime, a normal one, anyway, 100 days is a very small snippet. I salute you for dragging yourself to the gym all those days. It just has to be making a difference. How could it not? Once you get there, do you feel better for having gone?

Hang in there. I heard a rumor that Spring is actually coming...
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[User Picture]From: channonyarrow
2014-03-26 09:27 pm (UTC)
My boyfriend sets goals and then beats himself up for not being perfect. I think it's a frustrating way to live; you (and he!) deserve kudos for identifying some things that will make your life more what you want and working toward them particularly at such a stressful time. If anyone could be perfect out of the gate, they'd be an annoying person to know, I think.

Don't get too hard on yourself about not doing all the things. I think you should feel good that you're doing some of the things and striving to do more of the things, while remaining firmly in the human world. We are all works in progress, and progress deserves recognition for the effort it is.
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[User Picture]From: mplsindygirl
2014-03-26 11:31 pm (UTC)
I am pleased to hear that you are managing to even get out of bed every day. At this point, with all you have going on, all the rest is icing on the cake.
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[User Picture]From: fallconsmate
2014-03-27 01:23 am (UTC)
when a person gets to the point of great stress and grief, pulling back on most activities is NORMAL. the important thing is that you ARE taking care of yourself (by going to the gym) and that you HAVE been doing some things that bring you peace (journaling, working on a quilt).

your physical and mental health are the most important things you have. that and a solid relationship with one's spouse should there be one. :)

*hugs and peace to you*
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From: anonymousalex
2014-03-27 01:44 am (UTC)
Even with the unusual extenuating circumstances aside, it's not about apologizing. It's about trying to approach your goals today, regardless of how closely you approached them yesterday. (Or at least, that's how it ought to be.)

If you include the extenuating circumstances, it's impressive you even remembered to count the 100 days.

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[User Picture]From: delosd
2014-03-29 01:28 am (UTC)
Go gym! If you can't do everything, then pick one thing, do it marvelously well, and move on to the next thing. (Apologies to the MASH writers.)
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