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Overcoming inertia [Jun. 5th, 2015|02:06 pm]
Over the last couple years I've kind of just...stopped. I stopped doing any gardening, then I stopped biking, then I stopped quilting, then I stopped cooking. I feel like I just ran down. I've sort of puddled into the corner of this couch, laptop and phone, and let bytes run my life.

Part of this has been the back problems, but the inactivity is exacerbating those problems rather than helping.

I'm working to overcome that now. Yesterday I went outside and pulled weeds, accomplishing about 3% of the work that needs to be done just to get our yard back up to barely acceptable standards. It made me feel really good, just being outside. When I came in, I told Ferrett that what I really needed to do was get up every morning and spend an hour in the garden. I'm hoping to build back up to an hour of several different things a day: an hour of exercise; an hour of quilting; an hour of writing. I will take it slowly, because the ALL THE THINGS trap is easy for me to trigger, and then I'll be back to square one.

So when I stayed up way too late last night, and when I forgot to set an alarm, and when other things came along to interfere with my plan, I came close to abandoning it "for today."

But "today" tends to turn into, "this week" and "this month." Instead, I made myself get out there and put in an hour of weed pulling.

I feel better about myself for doing it. It's a tiny step in the right direction, but it's a step.

[User Picture]From: bunny42
2015-06-05 06:49 pm (UTC)
Boy, howdy, that sure hits home. My life cycle is so screwed up. I'm often awake until 4 a.m. because I can't sleep. Then I waste most of the day napping and don't accomplish any of The Things. Pretty soon they become overwhelming and I don't even know where to begin.

A bit at a time, is where. I joined a fitness club with a lap pool, and I FORCE myself to go there and swim for an hour three times per week. It's a start. At least it gets my butt up off the couch.

Garden-tending is very satisfying. That was a great selection. Sometimes one thing leads to another, and somehow you're back in the world. It's been a tough year. I'm thinking of you.
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[User Picture]From: ckd
2015-06-05 06:53 pm (UTC)
It is a step, and as someone who has their own struggles with that sort of thing I say GO YOU and celebrate it.
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[User Picture]From: greybeta
2015-06-05 07:41 pm (UTC)
I've always thought the aphorism "Little strokes fell great oaks" was a bit trite, but then I've come to realize that there's a truth to behind those bits of old wisdom. Keep taking those steps forward, no matter how tiny, Mrs. Ferrett!
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[User Picture]From: jeffpalmatier
2015-06-05 09:18 pm (UTC)
I never heard that saying before, but it so true. Small steps over time produce results. A lot of times, all we can do is the small steps because of the limitations life puts on us in terms of limited time and energy.
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2015-06-05 07:47 pm (UTC)
Good for you!! "little bites" is the smart way to get back into it! I'm thankful I have a little job (part time nanny) that FORCES me to get off my duff and DO STUFF. It's good for me physically, mentally and financially. If I were home all day, every day, I know I'd become a couch potato!! Keep up the good work! Onward and Upward!!
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[User Picture]From: jeffpalmatier
2015-06-05 09:17 pm (UTC)
Even doing something small makes me feel good. Then there's the hard-won knowledge that many important goals is made up of doing small steps over a period of time rather than the all-or-nothing philosophy I used to take to accomplishing goals.
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[User Picture]From: mplsindygirl
2015-06-05 11:18 pm (UTC)
Reading this makes me more determined to get out and ride my bike for the first time this year.

Step, step, step...
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[User Picture]From: khiron1416
2015-06-06 12:20 pm (UTC)
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[User Picture]From: throbinson
2015-06-06 03:52 pm (UTC)
This is inspirational. I feel that all I do is work, and when I'm not working I don't have the brain cells or motivation to devote to anything else. My house is becoming even more cluttered, I haven't read a book in months (this, from a chronic lifelong bookworm), and I barely talk to my husband or family. I have two weeks of vacation coming up at the end of June and I plan to spend half of it at the beach and half at home, just living. I took a total of three (not consecutive) days of vacation last summer, worked for part of each spring and winter break, and I am just burned out.
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[User Picture]From: irishgalinabq
2015-06-08 03:06 am (UTC)
Same problem here. I am also committed to an hour per day but I do different things on different days. One day I quilt, another I garden and so on. I hate gardening so I just cannot go out there every day.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2015-06-08 01:20 pm (UTC)
Understandable. I didn't make it out this weekend, but this weekend was highly entangled with grief, so I'm being easy on myself.
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[User Picture]From: tormentedartist
2015-06-08 06:32 am (UTC)
I am happy to read this. But to be fair...you have had a trying couple of years. I can understand why you needed to disengage from some of the stuff going on in your life.
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[User Picture]From: bunny42
2015-06-08 02:57 pm (UTC)
I was remembering your bread-baking posts. Kneading bread dough is so therapeutic, and bread baking in the oven is such a satisfying and glorious aroma. Just wondered if you might want to try bread again.
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[User Picture]From: perseph12
2015-06-09 06:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you for sharing this, for being so honest and open. I needed to read that I am not alone in feeling like I "gave up" on my favorite things. I hope we can both make the changes we need.
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[User Picture]From: zoethe
2015-06-10 01:16 am (UTC)
It's a challenge. I'm doing better at getting some exercise than at other things. But I feel like I'm making some forward progress.
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