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I'll never be this young again [Jul. 17th, 2015|01:50 pm]
Here is my beloved Betty, now adapted to accommodate my back:

The handlebars, which used to be slightly lower than the seat, are now quite high. Between an extended stem and the raised handlebars, I can sit up quite straight. I rode again yesterday, a little over 6 miles, and once again made myself keep it short.

It's tough, this starting slow. I was sore as heck afterward. I tell myself that it's the good kind of pain, but it's still pain.

Today, I feel good. I recovered well. I feel...cheerful about where I am.

I listened to Avici's Wake Me Up. One of the lyrics is "I wish that I could stay forever this young." And before, I've heard that with melancholy: I'm well past youth.

And then today I realized, I am still younger than I will be tomorrow, and certainly younger than I will be in 10 years. I am embracing that, making the best use of today so that my tomorrows will be the best they can be.

[User Picture]From: mplsindygirl
2015-07-17 08:47 pm (UTC)
Raised handlebars are a must for me, as well. 6 miles sounds like a good, solid ride to me. But I remember the long rides you have done, and imagine it feels short in comparison. Yay for feeling well after the ride :)
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[User Picture]From: ba1126
2015-07-17 11:21 pm (UTC)
So glad you are getting back to something you love! Best of luck for continued good riding!!
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[User Picture]From: wilhelmina_d
2015-07-18 03:15 am (UTC)
Congratulations for doing it! I know how hard it is and what it feels like after (I call it an "exercise hangover"). You can do it!
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[User Picture]From: greybeta
2015-07-18 12:26 pm (UTC)
I seem to recall that you had a fondness for biking, Mrs. Ferrett, the last time I was active on LJ. It is funny, I recently want read a book that a friend recommended to me. It's called Switch: How to change things when change is hard.. One of the overriding themes of the book is that we often mistakenly think that to solve a big problem we need big time changes. While that is sometimes the case, there are many situations that a small adjustment will yield a big change. Basically, we have an analytical side or Rider and an emotional side or Elephant. We usually think of these as opposites but the authors present them more as a symbiotic relationship. The key is finding solutions that encourage both our Rider and Elephant at the same time. I truly think that biking appeals to both halves of you. If you get some spare time, check out the book. It helped me realize I did not have to have some sort of grand scheme to solve all of my problems. Small steps add up!
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From: anonymousalex
2015-07-18 12:58 pm (UTC)
Today I am the oldest I've ever been. :-)

I've been thinking about (read: not doing anything about) getting a bike and riding again for a while now. Adapting the idea to my older body is a major mental hurdle.

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