|Will you please just sit down?!
||[Jul. 24th, 2003|07:19 pm]
I fear I have become constitutionally incapable of relaxing. When I got home this evening I had plans to kick back. Before I thought about it I had cleaned out the car, done the dishes, folded two loads of laundry, and dead-headed flowers in the front yard. Taking myself in hand, I went into the backyard to sit upon the swing and relax.
In three minutes I was up pulling weeds.
I haven't managed to watch a DVD all the way through at home for months. I get bored, wander away. There are other things to do.
And yet I feel tired and restless. Bordering on anxious. I am a bundle of unexpressed desires, roiling around, wanting attention.
I can't focus on any of them because the time is so short, there is too much to do.
For what it worth
HELLO AND WELCOME TO THE CLUB!!!
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For what it worth
HELLO AND WELCOME TO THE CLUB!!! <cheerful silly wave
yeah, thanks, right??
It <b>IS</b> however why I took up knitting (learned it off the net!)
The very <i>idea</i> of just sitting there, watching a movie when you can see dust bunnies, or the dog needs brushing or the pile of laundry is of cosmic proportions - yes, I know SO well how you feel.
Before leaving in the morning I have both the dishwasher and a load of laundry going, I may even have set up something for hubby to put into the oven for dinner when he gets home, this on top of the the girly stuff I do to get ready for work - yada yada blah blah blah
granted I am VERY blessed in not having a young child who also needs to be dropped off at school anymore (now it's drop adult child off at parties, midnight movies - hmmm, same chore, different time?)
I KNOW, "what, add something else to my busy day???
For me, and this is just for me, knitting MAKES me sit still, and in so doing I find myself reflecting a lot more on what is REALLY important - and the cool thing?? I have something to show for that time.
Hey, when Mom passed on to Summerland, dishes were sitting in the sink, laundry had to be done and you know what??? SO WHAT, we loved her and it didn't matter.
now, sit still and spend time with your family, even if it is just watching a silly movie.
I am now going to go plant my rear on the couch, grab my knitting and watch an interview of Alice Coooper - dust bunnies be damned!!!
I used to quilt, and to cross stitch.
Honestly, I need to get reading glasses before I can take up cross stitch again, and quilting would require reinvesting in the stuff I sold when we left Alaska.
And school will start soon, at which point leisure time will be a fond memory. But you do have a point; when I had a hobby I did find it easier to sit still because I was doing something with my hands.
There are half-finished quilting projects around. I should think about working on one of those....
Your quilts are so entirely beautiful--you must, must finish!
I think the ease would do you good.
And...how abt paper journaling? Sometimes LJ is just a bit ttoo public for some reflections, I have found, and it always helped to keep a journal around for such things. Nice way to end the day.
That said....I'll pay for quilts in sex. :)
2003-07-26 07:16 pm (UTC)
Re: I second!
Wow. Now THAT'S an offer. I'm impressed - and motivated!
I know exactly what you mean. It usually takes me three days to watch a movie. I've found that I prefer videos over CDs for that reason...
One thing that I do that drives me crazy is I forget my original purpose. I'll start to go somewhere in the house to do something, but get sidetracked by a bunch of other little things that need to be done. Before you know it, I'm out watering the tomato plants or dead-heading flowers and I'll remember, I was supposed to get some chicken out of the freezer or something. Then I'll start toward the basement and get sidetracked... it's a viscious cycle.
2003-07-26 07:17 pm (UTC)
I have that happen ALL the time. Highly frustrating. I try to focus, be Zen, but modern life makes it tough.